puffy the pufferfish.

2011-11-03T08:13:00.004+08:00

If you're reading this I'd assume you're extremely weird because my blog is completely dead but I wanted to post something because I can't even imagine how strangely messed up my life is. Also this is the vulnerable side of me because really not much people know what I'm about to say.

1. I missed the director's list yesterday by 0.03 GPA. Sounding like a competitive bitch, I know. I love encouragement and I work on it. That was remotely ever my only chance of getting that I think. The truth is, I know that other than my best God doesn't want anything else. I just need some time to sulk about it.

2. I missed being the top mod. I'm sure my friend beside me would've seen my disappointment. I studied like a crazy bitch for that. And yet again I lost it. History repeats itself. It happened in year one as well.

3. We got culled like crows yesterday for masina presentation. We were not prepared and we deserved it. But lecturer was very nice about it. And for that I am very grateful. He could have killed us but he chose not to. Instead he asked: "Why you all look so sad now?" Reminds me of another undeserved grace I got.

4. We got cheated of 2.4k. I agree it is too much to pay me 4.1k for a video. I really agree. But the hope of having that extra cash was already there and now it is cruelly taken away. I was about to say that I'll sponsor some of my Copenhagen trip by myself. Now I have second thoughts. Having said that I totally understand where R is coming from.

5. I'm not done with work. Enough said. School and work at the same time is already killing me.

6. A stupid trivial reason to be sad. My bank dropped to the next lower thousand yesterday.

7. I don't have my own room. No privacy. Now the house knows that I quarreled with some of my best friends at school last night. Maybe that's why I have a 3M privacy screen protector. Because that's the only form of privacy I will ever get. So that the people beside me on this mother sardine packed train at Dhoby Ghaut cannot see what I'm saying.

If there's really someone reading this. I'll be fine why? Because my God is good in every season and I have a reason to live and face tomorrow.

so i travel back, down that road.

2011-07-18T22:47:00.003+08:00

Media Industry:

1. Unethical

2. Lowly

3. Selfish

Why am I here. God maybe you want to tell me tonight in a dream.

Open my eyes, it was only just a dreaaaaam ~

I've made it.

2011-02-17T11:45:00.002+08:00

I've made it to Feb 17, I'll make it to March 1. Anyhow, I was doing my Understanding Relationships project and well.. I came across this article on the Internet and I think it makes 100% of sense. Just so that I'm not plagiarizing whatsoever, this is taken off http://www.everystudent.com/forum/sex.html haha.

"Is premarital sex wrong? Why are all the things that are fun and exciting wrong according to you Christians? Why would a God who loved say that you can not do things that are fun?"

Consider this, is driving a car wrong? No. Is driving a car for an 13-year-old wrong? Yes. It's fun and exciting for the 13-year-old, but it puts his life and other lives in jeopardy.

Is sex, which is fun, between a husband and wife wrong? No. Is sex wrong if it's with someone else's spouse? Yes. It may be fun and exciting, but it often brings tremendous heartache to that person's spouse and the children involved.

A loving God has made his wisdom on life known to us. He says that sin is pleasurable for the moment. There probably isn't any sin which is not at the moment pleasurable. But pleasure can't be our only standard for making decisions. Think how fun it would have been to really severely smack a younger brother or sister at times. Pleasurable for the moment, but fortunately we hold back because pleasure isn't our only guide.

God wants to keep us from horrendous problems which we can bring on ourselves by the stupid decisions we make. He genuinely loves us and wants to protect us from decisions and behavior that will ruin our lives or someone else's life.

Why does God (who created sex) restrict sex to marriage? Is it to spoil people's fun or to insure that a couple enjoys the deepest level of intimacy possible, reserved for only each other? When God gives us guidance his motives are pure and prompted by his love for us.

People get used sexually for momentary fun and excitement, but what if there is something more valuable than momentary pleasure? Like dignity, self-esteem, knowing that you're also treating that other person with greater value? Perhaps God thinks relationships can be more intimate, secure and stronger if they are built on something more substantial than sexual involvement. Whatever God's reasons, his wisdom surpasses ours and he can be trusted. And quite often we later see the value of following him.

I can do this.

2011-01-30T13:56:00.002+08:00

My blog is dead and so am I.

My life returns to me February 18, 2011.

I hope I make it.

David Archuleta is an angel.

2010-11-15T21:38:00.003+08:00

I have decided to make this both an account of what happened and throw in all my feelings as well both positive and negative. It will also be a review of fandom because my mind is blown away by the psychology that lies behind fangirling as a hobby. Then again, I can never say what I think my blog post will be because it is always unpredictable.

So today is a repeat of April 7, 2009. I got to meet David, again. I think I'm damn lucky. Nobody comes once a year and certainly not all the way from America. But oh wells, Archuleta is awesome. Therefore he is here again. I marvel at how nice he is. School today was like, uhm.. a moment out of time. Like I was just waiting for it to go by. I did learn stuff but I was most of the time just hoping for 4pm. Yes I ponned 4-6pm lecture. Mr Tzang Merwyn Tong, I'm sorry. I honestly know that ponning lectures isn't the right thing to do but mmm. Once in a while wouldn't really kill, I presume. So after school ended I rushed down to Bugis.

Didn't really need to rush, I would soon find out. I got there at like 4:30pm and the signing was at 7pm. Moreover my beyond-awesome junior had called in to the radio station and won us a pair of priority passes. Had we not gotten those passes, I would have had to pon all four lessons in school. Which would probably make me die and never catch up with any other mass commie ever again. God forbid that.

Okay so when we got there we were kinda like.. "How we supposed to know who works in 987fm?" Then Junior got a text: "Hi. I am sitting at Starbucks with a pink top. Come and register with me." So we found that dudette. Registered. Got into the freaking front of the queue. That felt kinda amazing. To just be there when the other dudettes had queued since morning. Awesome. Oh yup forgot to mention that I bought one more copy of David's album just so to get the notebook that came with it. (Turns out this was an awesome decision) Waited for David. Waited kinda long. Okay actually 10 minutes isn't long, but when you're waiting for David, it is trust me.

So SBL started playing. Whole song finish he haven't even come. Then he came. HE CAME. I was like UHM WOW. That is DJA standing right in front of me. Got the centre front place somemore so he was about three metres away. That was uhm, totally amazing. I snapped photos of him non-stop I didn't even listen to the interview carefully. He is the most good-looking male I have ever seen in my life lol. Some people I know would puke upon me saying that. But well I still think he's damn good-looking. Like, the most. The most handsome boy I have ever seen in my life.

Then after the interview we sang him a birthday song. A super freaking early one. One month and thirteen days early but hey who cares. We see him once a year. He looked happy. He looked happy the whole day today actually. Oh how cute & how awesome. Then his autograph thingo began. The very first person he signed for was the little girl on the wheelchair. I'm sorry but that was like beyond sweet and I melted inside like butter on a hot pan. He's always so sweet to like under-privileged and/or disabled kids. That dudette must have been really happy.

Then it was our turn. Oh hoho. This was awesome. I was kinda like oh my, what am I going to do.. Ok and what am I going to say. So I decided to tell him thanks for coming and that I skipped school to see him. Or something like that. I'll say whatever comes.

I started my iPhone voice memo recording.

The security pointed to my phone, I thought it meant I couldn't bring my phone on stage. Then he said no photography, I was like oh sure.. And I went up. Girl before gave David Donald Duck plush toy and he was like: "Oh wow, Donald Duck.." -laughs a little-

MY TURN.

"HI DAVID!"

"Hi!"

"I SKIPPED SCHOOL TO SEE YOU!"

"Oh -chuckles- noooo. Thank you."

"Love your music, thank you!"

"Aww thank you very much."

He totally disapproved of me skipping school. It was said all over his face. Lol David, once in a while seriously nevermind one lah huh. It's for you anyway. And then I got off stage. Mesmerized, indeed. I don't know lah, there's really something about him. It's a glow that shines through very sweetly. Then I couldn't believe it was over.. Like uh, so fast. And now I was miles away from him so I decided to go eat dinner then go back and see him leave. Then I suddenly went: "OH DANG. Forgot to shake his hand."

During dinner. BRAINWAVE! Uhm, did I not buy another album? I can get up there again if there's time! Frantically rubs off the heart shaped chop that signified I've already met David. Finishes dinner, runs back to Bugis Square to queue again. The queue was short. The time for me to absorb that I was gonna meet him again was kinda.. short too. I didn't formulate my speech well this time. I got there, got another heart on my hand.

On stage.. dudette before me finished signing.. I put my album inlay in front of him. And I did not say anything. As if I was mute. He looked up at me with the: "Why this person so quiet ah." look. And I smiled at him. I said thank you, and I asked: "Can I shake your hand?" He replies: "Sure" -shakes hand and walks off stage- MISSION ACCOMPLISHED. Talked to him three sentences and shook his hand. Oh awesome. Completed it.

Then we hung around a while more till he left. Before he left he said thank you Singapore, that sweet little 19-year-old kid. We knew the place he was exiting by and ran to the sidelines. Junior hadn't touched him yet so she stuck out her hand over the railing. Sweet as ever, David ran through all the hands that were out. Because he was sweet enough to look at his fans, he almost crashed into a potted plant and he gave the oh-whoops-haha-i-totally-did-not-see-that-plant face. Adorable max, yes. That was the end.

Went home feeling kinda bittersweet. Don't think I'll ever see David again. What puzzles me is how fandom makes people devote their whole lives to one thing and nothing else. So, you love David. Has he ever loved you back. Mmm. I'm happy to know that fan-girling will soon be outgrown. I'm also curious to know what I'll think of myself next time. Well at least there's gonna be a story to tell the kids. I think it's part of being a young teenage girl anyway. And for now.. I'm happy being this way. David rocks, he's the most good-looking human being my eyes have ever seen.

huat ah.

2010-09-18T09:53:00.004+08:00

hello silly blog. i have nothing to do on a beautiful saturday morning and i'm spending some quality time with illinois and since i've got nothing to do with him, i shall.. blog. i'm in a relatively reflective mood today so let's see where my fingers take me to.

so. i've been on holidays. and i've been wasting my life away. sincerely thinks there's nothing wrong with lying on the couch for four hours of the morning and slacking. do we get to do that when semester 2.1 starts? nope, we don't. so yes its fine to stay home and refuse to go to work. it is! i say it is, so it is. :D

and i've been on CGL break. i've also been on worship team break. saturday free from duties feels damn good actually. it's like YAY i can slack away my morning and be a happy girl. on the other hand i miss the kids a little. ]: i stuck with them for completing the circle. i don't know why i did, i just wanted to. anyway. yesterday i was at friday prayer and i decided that i'd rather walk into an empty church building than walk into one that's full of people and the prayer room empty. something would be wrong with that picture. so anyway in the end prayer was pastor dave and myself. MMMM.

but i have also decided that we don't just lament about our problems and don't do anything about it cause that makes no sense.

also, i think we are growing up. nowadays my sister and i are ALWAYS talking about future plans. to buy cars, to buy houses, to get married. one step closer, to even get a boyfriend in the first place. and when we are both left on the shelf, we will live together and i will live on her stupid lawyer income and i shall stay home and the the housewife with no husband. "housewife with no husband" is obviously just a nice way of saying "MAID". lol wth, i know right.

my mother is becoming more childish. she is shooting rubberbands at me, intentionally using her feet to rub david archuleta's face, etc etc etc. and that day my sister said, "mom, make honey water for my friend who's sick." and mom says: "boy or girl? girl cannot, boy can." HELLO MOM?! are you desperate to marry us off? or something like that. she's crazy. like i don't wanna get married anyway.. -.- it's never up to the girls to ask. they can only sit there and wait.

ok so today's my mom and dad's anniversary. it's their 22nd only. lol how short compared to those old old couples. and uh. i wonder how people wake up to the same face for 22 years. imagine staring at that person for 22 years! and the rest of your freaking life. oh yeah. maybe that's why sometimes my parents sleep in different rooms. hah no. kidding. it's sometimes cause my dad can't stand ben's feet kicking him at night. so he just sleeps elsewhere. my family is indeed weird. but i love being a loke.

older brother sprained his wrist. it's swollen, blue-black, and damn huge now. he's the only one who's ever been to the hospital and stayed there. twice. of collar bone injuries, concussions, and who knows what else. i've only been to A&E once. for my ramsay hunt syndrome. if you are remotely interested, it's when the seventh cranial nerve of the brain is attacked by a certain sorta virus that's similar to the chicken pox virus, and then half the face is paralyzed because half the face is controlled by that nerve. so i smiled with half my mouth. i closed only one eye. and i could move half my nose. that is, one nostril. yeah don't ask me why i didn't snap any photos of my crooked face. it's the one thing i regret in life.

this post is too lame.

2010-08-31T22:26:00.002+08:00

this post is indeed too lame. i'm only composing it because i want at least one post in the month of august so that it'll kinda show up in my archives. yes i've not forgotten my blog. i was blogging really nicely till this thing called twitter came along. blogspot, fail. friendster, fail. facebook and twitter have overcome the world.

technology sucks. indeed it does. my phone crashing on me soon. stupid iPhone. i was a faithful apple advocate. still am kinda. cause macbook still rules a tonne over PC. sorry guys. all mac users don't yin shui si yuan. they don't think of where computers started in the first place. we are indeed, idiots.

anyway life's been good. hope yours has been too. i've been studying my life away the past week. sem 2.2 has been cool - with 2ams at vanessa's house etc. welcome to mass comm. have i ever mentioned that i love my school and my course. and of course my classmates. now it is time for me to sleep for my brain has never been this fried before. continuous hours of studying etc. well done hannah loke. though the hours of studying and months of projects have evidently made you lose your touch in writing.

what a lousy blog post.

i is back.

2010-07-11T16:34:00.003+08:00

may my blog live again. lol. i've been so busy watching world cup. -.- brazil rocks because kaka rocks. dang i don't know how to put the accent on the second a on my macbook. hahaha. anyway. tonight is the final match and oh how tragic that is.. no more world cup until 2014, where it shall be hosted by brazil and where they shall win on home ground. :) cock referees have made this world cup sad. like how he missed lampard's goal. maicon also had an impressive goal.

i shall win the jabulani ball - david villa please score tonight. score more than wesley sneijder. oh how sad i will be if holland lifts the world cup. ):

on an unhappy side note, i've got like what, tons of homework. commiss essay makes no sense. we've had like four group meetings but we haven't done anything because an essay is NOT a group task - who writes essays in groups. ok i do paragraph one, you do two, i do three. yeah right. as if there's going to be any flow in the essay at all. its due in exactly five days - not working.

AND OMG KARINA JUST REPLIED MY FACEBOOK WALL POST. i miss those days. when we used to laugh at how funny terry is. how cute he was when being a goalkeeper. SIGH. i still have the DVD she burned for me four years ago. ]:

anyways i've been at this post for about four hours now. i will stop here and do some I&E.

time to blog.

2010-06-10T20:50:00.002+08:00

indeed. time to blog. terrible girl.

school has been awesome. life in there hasn't been too stressful. the worst period of my life was youth patrol. when i curled up in a corner, and died. when i went to emo at block 52 level eight. where i fasted and prayed over the project. where i also stood on the edge of the building, making mr choy think i'm trying to commit suicide. lol. i just died there. my youth patrol was messing up. lol. i didn't know how to use the console, and i definitely forgot how to use protools.

turns out, God is smart. He knew how to use protools, how to use the stupid sound board, and how to script the youth patrol. He got an A+. again. radio seems to be the only thing that is friendly to me. just in case people think i'm someone with my nose high up in the air, i am not. and i don't think there's anything wrong with being happy after doing well either. mmmm. besides right, i don't do well in all the other modules, so this kinda makes me really happy and makes me feel like YES, i am happy to be in mass comm, yes i am.

on air presentation skills test about made my week with another A+. i might consider going into radio in the future. mmmm. who knows. not forgetting that i only wanna be a housewife.

i can't believe i just safe-assigned my commiss essay THREE times. pfft. gay.

i am lazy to continue blogging. bye.

hello two week break. :)

i'm grateful for you though you're not really called "VACATION".

horrible hannah.

2010-05-30T20:50:00.002+08:00

blogging thrice a month is indeed unacceptable. lol. i think... twitter is the culprit for making me stop blogging. those to-the-minute updates make me have nothing to speak of on this website. the mention of the word "website" makes me think of my web design application module. oh dear. that is terrible.

anyway yesterday's wedding makes me start planning my own wedding seating arrangements. if i'm the first to get married out of all the four kids.. then i will make my mother, father, sister, brothers, and boyfriend's parents and siblings sit at the same table. i don't care. i don't want them to be separated. or if both grace and daniel already have four kids. then i shall... get a 50-seater table. -.- anyways. wedding dresses ought to be re-used. shh. that was a secret.

i will not paint my fingernails until shufen's wedding. because i just saw the cui quality of my nails. it is beyond hope.

from the way i am blogging, you do know that i'm referring to my tweets and blogging from there right. hahahahahaha. oh how noob.

then there's terrible sundays. all my friends are gone for MOB so thanks! i am left here alone every single sunday.. uhm. going home immediately, or going with my parents. my sad life. nevermind. more time to study. speaking of studying, i do think that even after one year and two months in poly, i have not figured out exactly how hardworking i want to be. lol. my attitude goes up and down, which is bad. with certain modules especially i put in all the effort i have. with some i don't give a damn. which shouldn't be the way. it should be 100% for every module. i just haven't figured out how HARDWORKING i want to be. sigh. life's choices.

and i am signing up for the standard chartered marathon. i will start with 10km. next year i do 21, depending on how i feel after doing 10km. TEEHEE. oh goodness. i wonder if i know what i'm getting myself into. pfft.

anyway tomorrow is radio day and that makes me very happy. from my tweets you'd know how much i love my radio lecturer. rumour has it that he's leaving. which would make me very very very unhappy. nevermind we'll see what happens. and this standard chartered marathon payment has failed for the fourth time. i am fuming.

i am also fuming that i forgot to watch the re-run of american idol to watch LEE-DEWYZE however his name goes, take the crown from the all awesome kris allen. oh and i also can't believe that i didn't play kris allen in the end for radio test. hello hannah loke. lol. okay i think i've had enough of ranting on my blog. lol.

i miss daniel loke. ]:

it's been 74 days.

ruined my reputation.

2010-05-07T17:44:00.002+08:00

ok i am so screwed because i ruined my image today. lol. here's how:

you know how radio capsules, you've got like those things where you get opinions of people out on the streets. like let's say i'm discussing HOW POLY STUDENTS SHOULD DRESS TO SCHOOL. then i have this whole collection of amalgam of people's voices giving their answers. and i cut and paste it together before it goes on air. you know what i'm talking about? yeah.

so you know MCM students when they walk around school with their microphones, people shun them almost instantly because people hate speaking into microphones or showing their faces on camera. all except mass comm students.

so then. i approach my friends. like those other mcm-ers. and one pair i approached, they got another guy to also do the interview for me. this guy, i have no clue who he is. but they told me he's in mass comm. so ok. mass comm people confirm help mass comm people. so i ask him, "so, do you feel a need to dress up to school?" and he says. "i don't think there's a need to dress up, but as long as you look presentable it's fine. like, no shorts and flip flops."

and i stop the recording and say thank you.

and 3 seconds later he says: "oh you're wearing shorts and flip flops. sorry."

OMG DAMN PAISEH I TELL YOU. like he's kinda a fashionista in my opinion and i'm like some hobo walking around in school. okay but here's the thing ok, seriously, school ain't a fashion parade and i think shorts and slippers though a bit too casual, works fine lah. and wellll. not like this singapore weather encourages lots of cloth everyday

and the bottomline is, i want a uniform for school. ):

blue mondays and orange fridays.

2010-05-03T11:07:00.003+08:00

it is indeed the bluest monday ever. don't feel like doing radio script. at all. its like this high mountain that looms ahead of me. and i choose not to see it. and the weekend pretty much didn't feel like a weekend. it was surprise weekend.

saturday was chrysan's birthday surprise. which i hope wasn't a fail. lol. she didn't know. i am an awesome actress ^^ you know how hard it is to act and hide something from someone when you see that someone everyday.

sunday was bryan's OCS visit. he didn't know either. but that's an easy one to hide. :) after visiting OCS i feel like enlisting. so that i don't have to do my radio project. oh how wonderful that would be.

dang it.

2010-04-24T10:36:00.002+08:00

i need to start blogging again. bet i'm losing viewers - not like its an issue to me. but i don't know i just have nothing to write about. i used to have stuff to write about. but now life is getting mundane. school, school, school. not forgetting skool. mmm.

i like T207. i am impressed at how i have grown to like my class in such a short time. there are very nice people here in mass comm which gives me some hope that this course, has good people. we are not all cocky and oh-i-got-L1R4-six-unlike-some-people. in every group of people, there are always exceptions. look out for them and don't overgeneralize. stereotypes are not good.

lecturers are quite awesome save for ONE of them. all year 2.2 mass commies will know which lecturer i'm talking about. radio lecturer mario comes across as the coolest to me now. he's dang cool. after lesson. he held up this rihanna CD. "anyone wants a rihanna CD? come here get it." and that guy gets it. COOL. i wanted to take eh cuz i would like to fill up my CD rack which currently has 7 spaces more. but.. i decided that i'm not big enough a rihanna fan to deserve that. oh mario used david A. in one of his powerpoint slide backgrounds (i think, his face was canted at a weird angle so i'm not sure if its david) but i kind of went a bit siao. i snapped a photo. maybe some other day i'll upload it.

oh i dropped avondale for the first time. i was really sad. ): but he's fine. :) he still serves me well. other than that my battery life span is already starting to shorten. ): please serve me well for at least another two years, iPhone.

21 mails from facebook. mmm. okay okay. before i start talking nonsense. i shall get off. i guess the next time i blog will be really long roar. i have no inspiration to write. and i am sounding like matthew, he always says that.

Somerset 313

2010-04-16T19:40:00.001+08:00

It's my favouritest mall in Singapore. Somerset 313. Marché. Esprit. F21. Awesome stuff. Then today there was one staff walking around and talking to shoppers he said: "Hello girls how you doing!" and he talked for a bit he was really nice. He asked why we like to come to Somerset 313 and all that stuff I'm like COOOOL. You don't usually get friendly services in Singapore. Then finally he gave us two complimentary magazines Cleo and Seventeen I was like wowwie. Mmmm. Officially my favourite place in town.

worth more than gold.

2010-04-15T13:31:00.002+08:00

i wouldn't lie when i say these photos mean something.

MUAAAAAAhahahaha.

2010-04-11T22:17:00.002+08:00

today while the worship leader was reading bible verses in preparation for worship, pastor william forgot to off his mic and he was at the front door greeting people. so coming out of the speakers were: "morning, morning. :)" HAHAHAH it is too funny. i was laughing alllll the way. when i thought about it like, in the third song of worship, i still thought it was funny. whoops. wasn't concentrating. /:

one week left ):(:):(:):(:):(:):(:):(:):(:):(:):(:)

we were made for each other.

2010-04-08T10:47:00.001+08:00

why don't people get along well.. i do remember something biblical about us being in a community and that people were never made to survive alone. good. we have friends, and we get encouragement from friends. it is strange though, why two people will most definitely encounter friction after seeing each other for too long a time.

i don't hate my friends ok. i love them. the afternoon on january 29 is still indelibly etched in my mind. i love my friends. they are amazing. i just wonder why it is so easy to have quarrels.

new found respect for every single pair of best friends in the world.

mmhmm.

2010-04-05T12:31:00.002+08:00

ROAR. can hardly believe how lazy i am to blog. or i kind of just don't have things to say. life is good. i'm just enjoying my holidays. right now i'm eating biscuits and marshmallows. how disgusting. other than that i've been playing rockband. and i still haven't gone for my personal retreat yet. should i? yeah i think i should ah but it is quite scary. and hard to find a time. hahah. dang it. i need to.

ok i shall just watch TV now and eat. bb.

kris allen is awesome.

2010-04-05T12:06:00.006+08:00

i decided to close down my livejournal. and the only post i want to keep is the kris allen one. so i shall store it on my blogger. one day if blogger crashes on me i promise i'll faint because it hold five years of memories. so here's my kris allen post.

I feel the need to blog in detail haha. In order not to irritate any soul by verbally telling him/her this whole thing, it shall be on my blog.

So I went for lecture from 2-4. All through lecture I was like OMG Miss Sonia, faster end the lecture I have something important to attend to lah. And all the more it went slower, life's like that. After lecture I chionged down to Clarke Quay. I attempted the fastest way possible. Bus to Dover then train to Outram Park and change to Clarke Quay. Haha that was like totally I was damn excited already. Upon reaching Clarke Quay, me and junior were like OMG where is Zirca.

After walking for like half an hour we found it. -.- It's like totally easy to find but we walked big rounds. Haha we saw the queue and I was utterly shocked. I was like HEYYYYY why no people one?! I saw Ashu, and he skipped lecture to go. So I asked him, how long have you been queueing? He says one hour and a half. I count the people behind him. LESS THAN 10. Omgosh the queue grow less than 10 people in one hour! HAHAHA so I still chose to go to BK and buy dinner before coming back. Awesome the queue grew 1 person when I went to buy my dinner. Lol. Which is a good thing I guess.

With much anticipation we waited. And waited. Limo arrives. I've said this many times but it's too funny. Limo arrives, girls scream, doors open, screaming intensifies, FAT MAN EMERGES, Hannah Loke laughs like mad. LOL. Seriously damn funny please. AND at 7pm, the doors opened promptly. They not bad lah, they said doors open 7pm, it was really 7pm. Haha. Awesomeee. And I got ready my ID and tickets. They wanna see that you're above 14, cuz those below 14 must have momma. LOL.

INSIDE. People were forming at the stage. They were like.. forming fast. But I needed to pee. So I faster go toilet. Before more people pile up at the front row. (Zirca's toilet is awesome btw like hotel lol) Haha and when I came out I saw the queue didn't really grow. So I just stood at the frontest I could get. It seemed far. After waiting for 15 minutes, angmoh guy emerges, and says something like, "Hi girls you gotta move a little, I'm just gonna ask Kris Allen to stand right here." and he places the mic stand on that spot. *SCREAAAAAAMS*

I was thinking, "WWWWWOW thaaaat close?!" The microphone stand was freaking near me. Like 2m at the max. So I waited in anticipation. Snapped some photos of the screen that shouted "KRIS ALLEN" and I tried snapping the proximity of the microphone stand but ahhhh it didn't work. Lol. Because in photos, your objects always look further than they really are. Plus, iPhone no zoom function. That's nice. While we were waiting I said: "Eh I thought no need bring camera cuz they say cannot." Girl turns around and goes: "Concert always bring camera!" ): Then a while later I say: "Eh I scared later everyone scream, I never, then damn loud." Same girl turns around: "Concert surely got screaming one." ): LOL.

As we waited it got more squishy in the junior mosh pit. It's called junior because it isn't as bad as a Muse concert's mosh. Thankfully. I would die. Then we waited for Kris Allen to come out. Waited and waited and waited. He wasn't late. They said 8pm. He came out about 8:15pm. Awesomeeee. Some weird part of me was like going: "Ok lah he confirm stop there at the middle of the stage." But he walked, and walked, and walked. All the way. To 2m in front of me. I was estimating the distance. I could've covered it in two steps. One to the front of the stage, and one step up the stage. NAISE. He opened with HEARTLESS. Awesome. I was quite like. Whoa whoa hi is this KA in front of me standing 2 metres away singing Heartless LIVE. One look I knew he haven't cut hair for a super long time. Like HELLO HAHA so long and look like cockatoo. But nevertheless cute.

Lol then he greeted HI SINGAPORE are you having a good time.. And he knew about the age limit before they waived it. He asked, "Who's below 16 hereeee." And people were like screaming all the way. Lol. And then he delivered song after song with an his be-awesome voice. I personally loveddddd Red Guitar and The Truth. All through I tried snapping photos and videos. (My greatest regret of this whole thing is not bringing a camera, but eh the ticket said strictly no recording/videography HOW I KNOW IS FAKE ONE) So my iPhone sound system sucked. Visuals are rocking though.

Then he did something reallly cute. He grabbed notes and a red feather boa to wear from the audience. He grabbed a pair of Shrek ears to wear. Oh man he's so nice haha. So hot he still wear the red thing. Then somewhere in the middle he asked: "Are you guys having a-- I keep asking this, but are you guys having a great time?!" Haha so cuteeeee. Then actually he talks a lot in between, but I really can't hear a thing because the audience is permanently noisy.

But he says a lot of cute stuff. Like how he explains that Michael Jackson week was scary for him. But come onnnn he breezed through Man In The Mirror awesomely. And oh. He did a medley between Falling Slowly and With or Without You by U2, that was freaking awesome ah. It was super shiok, but too bad my lousy audio on iPhone ruined it for me. Falling Slowly started off nciely. No distortion. As soon as the rock element came in, my iPhone GG-ed on me. Sighhh.

Then comes the song that this fake fan doesn't know. This lousy fake fan lol. Yours truly. So I just stood and watched him sing it. And all of a sudden he leaned down to where I was standing. Like really closed. I stretched out my hand. My middle finger touched his pinky and then his microphone. Lol. I was like HAHA wow Hi Kris Allen. Lol. He gave away some guitar picks too.

After he sang the "last" song he just went backstage. Too promptly. Obviously he would come back. So we shouted for more and undoubtedly he emerged from behind the bright lights again. LLWD was freaking awesome. That one I was really singing to my heart's content and we all know whyyyyy. Haha. If you don't know why then good. Hahaha so then I was a super happy kid. He ended off. Ain't No Sunshine. IMO not the best song to end off with, but whateverrrr. Then he said his final thank you guys I loved you I loved tonight hope to see you guys again.

Then the clubbing lights and songs came on, I RAN OUT. Literally. I didn't want to stay in there any longer than necessary. Lol. After we went out I like a noob who brought my bottle into a club -.- HOW I KNOW LAH I ALSO NEVER GO CLUB BEFORE. Lol and I had to collect it after that because my bottle means a lot. We saw his limo outside again. Snapped a photo. Everything's on FB lah. -.- Lol. Too lazy to do anything about uploading photos. Oh I might have forgotten to mention that they sold his albums (AUTOGRAPHED) for 20$. I was kinda like WHAT. But I bought mine for like, 20 and it's not autographedddd. Haha but of course I didn't waste money and get a second copy. Haha after all, remember that Yours Truly is a fake fan. Lol. But it was awesome seriously. I would say worth my 101$ because he sang totally nicely and I enjoyed good music. Hot hot hot hot hot Kris Allen was so near me for the whole concert duration. Tonight was awesome. Period. Like, really period. I've said more than enough. Haha.

epicentre oh epicentre.

2010-04-01T12:03:00.002+08:00

life's like that.

after you buy it you see a nicer one.

after you do it you wish it hadn't been done.

MAYBE..

after you marry you find a nicer one. D:

God forbid the last statement. anyway. epicentre is highly annoying. when i got my phone they say OH sorry we don't carry candyshells. then now three months down the road they have it. and oh how annoying i really want it. the best colour is dark heart black and thankfully they don't have it. you know i think if they had it, i would buy it. though my current skin was $59.90 and candyshell is $49.90 ): what a waste of money. indeed, apple is a money sucker. but MARKETING STRATEGIES. i miss marcomm. not. YEAR TWOOOOOO.

T207. everything is going to be just fine. :)

one mountain is higher than another.

2010-03-21T22:32:00.002+08:00

march 19 results day. if there's anything i've learnt, it's that there's always people better than you.

hi hannah loke, so what if you got a bloody 6 points L1R4? does mass comm look like she cares? no. she wants to see you do well in media. not whether you got A1 for combined science and elementary math, or even food and nutrition.

so you should do seven things:

1) know that many people are better than you.

2) don't ask other people for their GPAs.

3) point #2 is so as to avoid comparison. don't.

4) psych yourself. year two is gonna be better.

5) work harder.

6) remember you can't bring GPA when you die.

7) leave everything to the manufacturer of your brain.

yay.

the bible is freaking awesome.

2010-03-12T21:05:00.004+08:00

i found an awesome trio of verses today doing QT. and they all resemble each other in reference. and i shall share.

romans 8:18

"i consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."

romans 8:28

"and we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

romans 8:38

"for i am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything in else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

i read this and i marvel at how awesomely and unimaginably i am loved. identity in christ comes first. and even if the world caves in around me, to the rock i cling and i know for sure that everything is gonna be alright. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. indeed it is time to let go of things. i can do this, for i can do all things through Him who gives me strength. not some. ALL. (philippians 4:13)

i feel very happy today.

2010-03-08T13:31:00.002+08:00

i am too cool. i just finished:

1) vacuuming the floor

2) washing the clothes

3) mopping the floor

4) drying the clothes

5) ironing the clothes

i'm freaking awesome.

and did you know?

i want to be a housewife :)

DAVID IS AWESOME

2010-03-07T21:58:00.002+08:00

these definitely deserve to be on my blog.

hello david james archuleta i think you are very cute dressing up as dr. seuss and reading to the elementary school students and i also think you are a damn nice boy for visiting corrina. and of course, i would love that lifesize cut out of you. lol. nice new website. yay.

your love broke my fall.

2010-03-06T10:03:00.002+08:00

love enough is such a nice song. it's also one of those the-more-you-listen-to-the-nicer-it-gets kind of song. anywaaaay. six weeks of holidays left. RRRROAR. i am not ready for year two. yet. by april nineteenth i will be. I WILL BE.

by the way does anyone know how to make the html so that the post titles can be seen. tsk. can't stand my posts not having the titles visible. it feels too disorganized.

so anyway yesterday i vacuumed, washed , and dried clothes. and momma's giving me money for that. i don't see a sin in not working during the holidays. really. unless you really need cash. to pay off a debt, or to buy something you really want. but other than that there shouldn't be condemnation in slacking away the holidays. mother keeps seeing other people work and she keeps telling me to work. I DON'T WANT. it's not like i'm lazy. if i really were lazy i wouldn't be vacuuming and doing the laundry and sweating. i like doing housework during holidays. better than working some office job or whatever. I LIKE IT THAT WAY why cannot right. btw i hate it when my sweat drips into clothes i just washed.

you have no idea, if you've never done housework, that housework is probably as effective of burning calories as running a few rounds around the stadium. good exercise. a housewife i shall be. really. especially with kids, i really do think that it is one of the most fulfilling jobs ever. and if you could already tell, i came with no intention to write about any subject. wherever my fingers take me to. hahha. song i'm listening to now: live like we're dying by kris allen. it's a good song. favourite line: "if your life flashed before you, what would you wish you would have done?" andddd. let's leave a verse to end off.

"Always put God first and you will be successful." Proverbs 16:3 (not NIV, some weird version)

i can never cry.

2010-03-02T20:45:00.004+08:00

i can never cry in movies, books, whatever. only if it's applicable to me i will cry. like for example, the only time i ever cried was in "i not stupid". but sure there are things that work my emotions. this is one of them and you can read it if you have time. if you can be at my blog, you probably have time to kill anyway. :) it's a commonwealth essay by a school-girl.

What the Modern Woman Wants
By Amanda Chong Wei-Zhen

The old woman sat in the backseat of the magenta convertible as it careened down the highway, clutching tightly to the plastic bag on her lap, afraid it may be kidnapped by the wind.

She was not used to such speed,with trembling hands she pulled the seatbelt tighter but was careful not to touch the patent leather seats with her callused fingers, her daughter had warned her not to dirty it, 'Fingerprints show very clearly on white, Ma.'

Her daughter, Bee Choo, was driving and talking on her sleek silver mobile phone using big words the old woman could barely understand. 'Finance' 'Liquidation' 'Assets' 'Investments'... Her voice was crisp and important and had an unfamiliar lilt to it. Her Bee Choo sounded like one of those foreign girls on television. She was speaking in an American accent.

The old lady clucked her tongue in disapproval. 'I absolutely cannot have this. We have to sell!' Her daughter exclaimed agitatedly as she stepped on the accelerator; her perfectly manicured fingernails gripping onto the steering wheel in irritation.

'I can't DEAL with this anymore!' she yelled as she clicked the phone shut and hurled it angrily toward the backseat. The mobile phone hit the old woman on the forehead and nestled soundlessly into her lap. She calmly picked it up and handed it to her daughter.

'Sorry, Ma,' she said, losing the American pretence and switching to Mandarin. 'I have a big client in America . There have been a lot of problems.'

The old lady nodded knowingly. Her daughter was big and important.

Bee Choo stared at her mother from the rear view window, wondering what she was thinking. Her mother's wrinkled countenance always carried the same cryptic look.

The phone began to ring again, an artificially cheerful digital tune, which broke the awkward silence. 'Hello, Beatrice! Yes, this is Elaine.' Elaine. The old woman cringed. I didn't name her Elaine. She remembered her daughter telling her, how an English name was very important for 'networking', Chinese ones being easily forgotten.

'Oh no, I can't see you for lunch today.. I have to take the ancient relic to the temple for her weird daily prayer ritual.'

Ancient Relic. The old woman understood perfectly it was referring to her. Her daughter always assumed that her mother's silence meant she did not comprehend.

'Yes, I know! My car seats will be reeking of joss sticks!' The old woman pursed her lips tightly, her hands gripping her plastic bag in defense.

The car curved smoothly into the temple courtyard. It looked almost garish next to the dull sheen of the ageing temple's roof. The old woman got out of the back seat, and made her unhurried way to the main hall.

Her daughter stepped out of the car in her business suit and stilettos and reapplied her lipstick as she made her brisk way to her mother's side.

'Ma, I'll wait outside. I have an important phone call to make,' she said, not bothering to hide her disgust at the pungent fumes of incense.

The old lady hobbled into the temple hall and lit a joss stick, she knelt down solemnly and whispered her now familiar daily prayer to the gods.

Thank you God of the Sky, you have given my daughter luck all these years. Everything I prayed for, you have given her. She has everything a young woman in this world could possibly want. She has a big house with a swimming pool, a maid to help her, as she is too clumsy to sew or cook.

Her love life has been blessed; she is engaged to a rich and handsome angmoh man. Her company is now the top financial firm and even men listen to what she says. She lives the perfect life. You have given her everything except happiness. I ask that the gods be merciful to her even if she has lost her roots while reaping the harvest of success.

What you see is not true, she is a filial daughter to me. She gives me a room in her big house and provides well for me. She is rude to me only because I affect her happiness. A young woman does not want to be hindered by her old mother. It is my fault.

The old lady prayed so hard that tears welled up in her eyes. Finally, with her head bowed in reverence she planted the half-burnt joss stick into an urn of smouldering ashes.

She bowed once more. The old woman had been praying for her daughter for thirty-two years. When her stomach was round like a melon, she came to the temple and prayed that it was a son.

Then the time was ripe and the baby slipped out of her womb, bawling and adorable with fat thighs and pink cheeks, but unmistakably, a girl. Her husband had icked and punched her for producing a useless baby who could not work or carry the family name.

Still, the woman returned to the temple with her new-born girl tied to her waist in a sarong and prayed that her daughter would grow up and have everything she ever wanted. Her husband left her and she prayed that her daughter would never have to depend on a man.

She prayed every day that her daughter would be a great woman, the woman that she, meek and uneducated, could never become. A woman with nengkan; the ability to do anything she set her mind to. A woman who commanded respect in the hearts of men. When she opened her mouth to speak, precious pearls would fall out and men would listen. She will not be like me, the woman prayed as she watched her daughter grow up and drift away from her, speaking a language she scarcely understood. She watched her daughter transform from a quiet girl, to one who openly defied her, calling her laotu; old-fashioned.. She wanted her mother to be 'modern', a word so new there was no Chinese word for it.

Now her daughter was too clever for her and the old woman wondered why she had prayed like that. The gods had been faithful to her persistent prayer, but the wealth and success that poured forth so richly had buried the girl's roots and now she stood, faceless, with no identity, bound to the soil of her ancestors by only a string of origami banknotes.

Her daughter had forgotten her mother's values.. Her wants were so ephemeral; that of a modern woman. Power, Wealth, access to the best fashion boutiques, and yet her daughter had not found true happiness. The old woman knew that you could find happiness with much less. When her daughter left the earth everything she had would count for nothing. People would look to her legacy and say that she was a great woman, but she would be forgotten once the wind blows over, like the ashes of burnt paper convertibles and mansions.

The old woman wished she could go back and erase all her big hopes and prayers for her daughter; now she had only one want: That her daughter be happy. She looked out of the temple gate. She saw her daughter speaking on the phone, her brow furrowed with anger and worry. Being at the top is not good, the woman thought, there is only one way to go from there - down.

The old woman carefully unfolded the plastic bag and spread out a packet of beehoon in front of the altar. Her daughter often mocked her for worshipping porcelain Gods. How could she pray to them so faithfully and expect pieces of ceramic to fly to her aid? But her daughter had her own gods too, idols of wealth, success and power that she was enslaved to and worshipped every day of her life.

Every day was a quest for the idols, and the idols she worshipped counted for nothing in eternity. All the wants her daughter had would slowly suck the life out of her and leave her, an empty soulless shell at the altar.

The old lady watched her joss tick. The dull heat had left a teetering grey stem that was on the danger of collapsing. Modern woman nowadays, the old lady sighed in resignation, as she bowed to the east one final time to end her ritual. Modern woman nowadays want so much that they lose their souls and wonder why they cannot find it.

Her joss stick disintegrated into a soft grey powder. She met her daughter outside the temple, the same look of worry and frustration was etched on her daughter's face. An empty expression, as if she was ploughing through the soil of her wants looking for the one thing that would sow the seeds of happiness.

They climbed into the convertible in silence and her daughter drove along the highway, this time not as fast as she had done before.

'Ma,' Bee Choo finally said. 'I don't know how to put this. Mark and I have been talking about it and we plan to move out of the big house. The property market is good now, and we managed to get a buyer willing to pay seven million for it. We decided we'd prefer a cosier penthouse apartment instead. We found a perfect one in Orchard Road. Once we move in to our apartment we plan to get rid of the maid, so we can have more space to ourselves...'

The old woman nodded knowingly. Bee Choo swallowed hard. 'We'd get someone to come in to do the housework and we can eat out - but once the maid is gone, there won't be anyone to look after you. You will be awfully lonely at home and, besides that, the apartment is rather small. There won't be space. We thought about it for a long time, and we decided the best thing for you is if you moved to a home. There's one near Hougang - it's a Christian home, a very nice one.'

The old woman did not raise an eyebrow. 'I've been there, the matron is willing to take you in.. It's beautiful with gardens and lots of old people to keep you company! I hardly have time for you, you'd be happier there.'

'You'd be happier there, really.' Her daughter repeated as if to affirm herself. This time the old woman had no plastic bag of food offerings to cling tightly to; she bit her lip and fastened her seat belt, as if it would protect her from a daughter who did not want her anymore. She sunk deep into the leather seat, letting her shoulders sag, and her fingers trace the white seat.

'Ma?' her daughter asked, searching the rear view window for her mother. 'Is everything okay?' What had to be done, had to be done. 'Yes,' she said firmly, louder than she intended, 'if it will make you happy,' she added more quietly.

'It's for you, Ma! You'll be happier there. You can move there tomorrow, I already got the maid to pack your things.' Elaine said triumphantly, mentally ticking yet another item off her agenda.

'I knew everything would be fine.'

Elaine smiled widely; she felt liberated. Perhaps getting rid of her mother would make her happier. She had thought about it. It seemed the only hindrance in her pursuit of happiness. She was happy now. She had everything a modern woman ever wanted; Money, Status, Career, Love,Power and now, Freedom, without her mother and her old-fashioned ways to weigh her down...

Yes, she was free. Her phone buzzed urgently, she picked it up and read the message, still beaming from ear to ear. 'Stocks 10% increase!'

Yes, things were definitely beginning to look up for her... And while searching for the meaning of life in the luminance of her hand phone screen, the old woman in the backseat became invisible, and she did not see the tears.

ben is a decade old.

2010-03-01T19:44:00.003+08:00

song playing in my head: dear god by avenge sevenfold.

dear god, the only thing i ask of you is to hold her when i'm not around, when i'm much too far away.

nice song. mmm. i've enjoyed a day of slacking. happy birthday baby ben. you'll always be our baby because you're so much younger than all of us. one decade ago my life was to be changed forever. sure ben can be damn irritating but overall i guess i'm still a happier kid with one younger brother. :)

GPA releases march 19 if i'm not wrong. i look forward. i probably screwed up my exam and all that. but nevermind. guess i tried. i tried for all the projects also. fulfilling but tiring semester. we'll see what figure we get on march 19. whatever the number. i vow to be happy and satisfied.

my housewife internship has been going nicely. everyday i'll do some stuff and i chip my nails and sweat it out. everyday i'm learning to be a better housewife. mmm. speaking of my nails. i shall go remove my nail polish. it's been a while. and it's time for me to feast on island creamery cake, and gain back alllll of those calories i burnt yesterday running 3km.

VICTORIA BECKHAM.

2010-02-28T21:26:00.002+08:00

this is random but WHOA she's super pretty eh i didn't know because i never bothered to see a picture of her without her sunglasses. lol. ok. that's all. i'm enjoying my holidays. :)

two days of holiday.

2010-02-23T21:10:00.004+08:00

second day of holidays and i'm considerably bored. today i went to lepak at gladys' house and we bought the changeling CD. most disturbing show ever. we have a psychopath who hacks children to their death and you actually get to witness a man get hanged. ): it makes people depressed after watching. that's an understatement.

hmm. tomorrow i have nothing on again, i shall just continue with my housewife internship and do the housework. i shall cook and iron and sweep and mop. :) i should work actually. but aiyah i just don't want lah. school term you work, holiday you also work, got what difference. -.- unless you really want to buy THAT THING and need to save money. i don't need anything right now.

i really want to try going to sentosa for one day by myself without my phone and away from all civilization and people that i know. then i can just spend time reflecting and in quiet meditation on everything. but i'm too doubtful about that, maybe i'll die of boredom halfway. and i will immediately travel back to vivocity to be back with civilization. ): but i think if i succeed it'll be one of the most meaningful things i'll do in my holidays. hrmph. i should try it. i have eight weeks.

and meanwhile, i'm waiting for all the other NP people to finish their exams so that i can go out with them. ): all the best to them for their exams though. :) 2 corinthians 12:9 my favouritest verse God's grace is sufficient you'll make it :D

HANNAHLOKEEE.

2010-02-22T12:39:00.002+08:00

lol what a lame post title. oh i forgot my blog doesn't display post titles anymore. -.- anyhow, today's a significant day where i change my MSN nic of 7.5 years. that's a freaking long time. because since i've watched finding nemo in 2003, i've always wanted to do voice acting or some career in voice. whatever. voice-acting would've been the most ideal. anyhow, i went to NP mass communication with the advice of some lecturers thinking that it would be the best platform for me to work my way into the media industry and ultimately get what i want.

as i go for radio lessons in year one and i start listening to my voice, i realized i hate it. i guess 99% of people hate listening to their own voice anyway, but unfortunately as a voice-artiste you should be listening to your voice everyday. hmmm. anyway i knew i came into mass comm with a super wide job scope available.

i am not giving up my dream of eight years. changing of my msn nic has no symbolic meaning. it is just time for a change. (: and as the quote in makan place goes something like this: "if you can imagine it, you can dream it. if you can dream it, you can become it." or something of that nature. haha.

i am not giving up my dream, i say again. i am opening up my options. i am opening my job options to everything else in the full spectrum of mass communication. from marketing, to radio, to tv, to journalism, to advertising, to public relations.

furthermore, let us not forget that i am going to be a housewife.

AY 10/11 :D

2010-02-20T11:39:00.003+08:00

hello on the morning of feb 20. i made it through year one. the happiness, liberation and relief lingers on. i make such a huge issue of it but it truly is an accomplishment. and it also is an amazing work of God. year two holds much more adventure in store.

FOR NOW. hello eight week holiday. thanks for coming, i really needed you. stay as long as you can, thanks. :) CEEGEE outing today. i miss 1992 people. ): off to bathe. bai.

my sister says: "i belly sad."

mad.

1 Cor 13

2010-02-14T20:12:00.003+08:00

In lieu of valentines day I shall define love.

Love is patient.

Love is kind.

Love does not envy.

Love does not boast.

Love is not proud.

Love is not rude.

Love is not self-seeking.

Love is not easily-angered.

Love keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil.

Love rejoices with the truth.

Love always protects, trusts, hopes, and perseveres.

Love never fails.

Valentines is not only for couples. We have been called to love EVERYONE around us, even the unlovable. By the above definition. Wowwie one of the hardest things I'll ever attempt. Got so easy to say "I love you"? Think properly first uh.

candyshellllll

2010-02-13T22:00:00.000+08:00

THIS IS SO AWESOME I NEED IT ):

lol.

2010-02-12T08:20:00.002+08:00

hello april 2010 semester. a bit far to think about you, but i still do. :)

Level 2.2
- Communication Issues
- Feature Writing
- Public Relations
- Radio Production 2
- Web Design Applications
- Innovation & Enterprise in Action

fainted. but i will make it.

kristopher allennnnn :)

2010-02-10T23:21:00.003+08:00

that is how close i was. haha.

take into consideration iPhone camera no zoom function.

it has served me well.

tonight was awesome. period.

bimbotic blogskin.

2010-02-10T11:05:00.002+08:00

so that person's inactive photobucket has caused my image to run away. so this calls for a new blogskin. actually its not bimbotic lah. but happy colours are never detrimental for health. unless you find that they are too bright for your eyes. if you hate it feel free to leave a comment and tell me "omg your taste sucks please change it thanks." haha.

K.A tonight. :)

gotta live like we're dying.

2010-02-06T23:44:00.003+08:00

i, hannah loke, am all ready to pay 99$ and step into a club for the very first time, just for kristopher neil allen. however. i have a marketing presentation the next day. but kris allen come to town once in a lifetime one lor. and i also have no friend to go with if junior cannot go. ): but come onnnnn its a gig at zirca i'm not going there to get drunk. i go there to enjoy good music and a beautiful voice.

i really wanna go. please say yes mother thanks. with my fingers crossed, i'll ask tomorrow.

school is nice now actually.

2010-02-05T22:39:00.002+08:00

graphcomm over, four modules to go. :D i will make it. i know i will. :) today on the train i was looking at this baby boy who was just being a regular baby staring and curiously observing the sights and absorbing the sounds around him. too cute. waaaay too cute. D: i could melt into a puddle. then i thought to myself: "i should like totally have gone to early childhood educationnnn." haha but aiyah mass comm makes me happy. happy enough. i'm really happy i came here and i don't think i'll ever look back on my decision. YEAR TWO IS COMING. and soon i'll be graduated. omggxxed i am too excited.

and i haven't been to frontline for too long. one week absent, is counted too long. but tomorrow i might not even be able to go ): omgosh you know when you've been doing something weekly for 5 years almost without breaks on any weeks. (the amount of time i've skipped frontline can be counted on both my hands, confirm) it just feels weird. then again church should not be a routine. but it's just something i'm used to and have been doing all my life. lol. i hope i get to go to church tomorrow. i miss dinner people (gladys/chrysan/cherie/jiamin) and all the other 1992 girls.

the life of a mass commie. haixxx. wahlau no time to sleep already then still blog blog blog. go hannah loke. :)

yay.

2010-02-04T00:14:00.001+08:00

i feel damn good for finishing flash a heck lot of other nonsense for school work. and i owe elisha lim 500$ in legal consultation fees for photoshop/illustrator.

school is being annoying but i will make it.

2010-02-02T21:43:00.003+08:00

hannah loke is going crazy with the amount of projects thrown at her. seriously. life isn't awesome right now but i cannot say that life sucks because in john 10:10 jesus says: "i have come that you may have life, and have it to the full."

while i was feeling bad enough about the graphcomm/webgraph/marcomm/medsoc/locvid projects and exams coming up, i was cutting the stupid mounting boards and i had a deep papercut. blood. i ran all over the house looking for materials. sweat. i cried. tears. seriously, sweat, blood and tears for my GPA. -.- is it really so important, seriously.. let us all take a step back and see if we can bring that 4.0 into the afterlife.

today while i was walking home i believe this song was ringing in my head for a reason:

because He lives, i can face tomorrow.

because He lives, all fear is gone.

and because i know, i know He holds the future.

and life is worth the living, just because He lives.

the only reason for living.

i am a very happy kid.

2010-01-29T22:54:00.003+08:00

one seriously important thing to thank God for: friends.

today the schoolwork piled up on me worse than ever before and i couldn't take it all so i cried. hey guys its my first time crying in poly because of schoolwork. after like, almost a year ok. haha. i've improved since i graduated from cedar. so when i was in a mess, my project groupmate (without the S) was also feeling horrible so we weren't of much help to each other's morale. anyhow, i couldn't take it so i texted the frontliners. i texted james, chrysan and minghui: "are you in school and free?"

and james was the first free one. he came down to film and media block from engineering block to talk to me. helped to make it better already.

then chrysan called back in reply to my text to ask where i am. though she had symposium, she came down to where james and i were for a moment to talk.

then minghui is the classic. she was eating at pizza hut at BKT and she CABBED back to school to talk to me. so i texted three people in hope that i would have at least one of them to talk to, and all of them made it down to find me.

rachel also met us coincidentally. how awesome.

james, in some attempt to annoy me and bryan, texted bryan and mentioned something about my horrible state. bryan texted back to ask me if i was okay.

elisha was coming down to NP to meet james for island or something. elisha decided to be really nice and help me with adobe illustrator for my dead projects.

thank you vvv much guys <3

:]

2010-01-23T23:02:00.001+08:00

haven't been blogging.
february 19 guys.
WHOOOHOOOO.
nine weeks holiday.

hello mass comm.

2010-01-14T21:37:00.002+08:00

today (or was it yesterday i can't remember) yingting pointed out that the students in ngee ann's horticulture learn how to take care of plants, while we media students study so hard to be part of an industry that is ever-so-deceitful, inculcates the wrong values into society etc. then i thought harder about it.

psych students study to help people and serve the community.

engineers study to build stuff like airplanes and power plants.

real estate people study to help sell houses next time.

early childhood dip kids study to aid kids' holistic development.

veterinary bioscience studies to help animals.

horticulture kids help take care of greenery.

lsct students, who knows - find a cure for cancer?

what the heck are our mass communication students doing. in media in society we learn that all media messages are constructed and something or some secret has been left out. also, all media messages have embedded values and points of view and the problem lies where these values and POVs are so wrong. the most common controversial topic we usually discuss in lecture is about how the media has distorted girls' perception of beauty. never satisfied. must be skinnier. must be smaller. must be bigger. must be fairer. must be smoother. damn it. whatever happened to "be content with what you have". the media is really weird. i wonder how these values came about in the very first place.

then there's advertisements. we all know that ads are always deceiving. the photograph of that burger you see on the double decker bus or that billboard or that print ad, will look almost nothing like the burger you eventually see before you on the table. ads do not = reality. its so deceiving always. so why am i studying really hard to go into such an industry where i wouldn't support whatever it doessss. mmm.

ok let's be fair and give the media some credit. sometimes they put it to good use. conveying of messages to tell people not to drink and drive, gamble, etc. social responsibility of the media, for all you know, they're forced to do these public broadcasting services.

more or less, i've decided that i'm stepping into the media industry to change it, or i'm not stepping in at all.

be cool. be a housewife.

I KILLED A LIZARD.

2010-01-09T23:45:00.001+08:00

I KILLED A LIZARD.

hello archuletaaaa.

2010-01-08T22:26:00.001+08:00

found this on tumblr. gosh he is hot.

early for school so a meditative/reflective post it shall be.

2010-01-06T10:06:00.004+08:00

since i'm freaking early for school. i shall blog. btw though the iPhone doesn't have the best battery power management, its still quite amazing. i mean i played 75% of an album today on the way to school, smsed a couple of people etc and the power is still 100%. ok i am apple ambassador i really like steve jobs.

anyway i realized i didn't share my new year resolutions and goals uh. share only ah. ok i can't remember all of it because its in my own journal but i shall write what i remember. i remember i had 11.

1) I shall read my bible on at LEAST 4/7 days a week.
2) I shall try my very best to get at least a GPA of approximately 3.0.
3) I shall exercise more.
4) I shall commit to spending more time on my young CG.
5) I shall learn to irritate my family members less.
6) I shall drink a lot more water.
7) I can't remember the rest.

something like that ah. lol i had GPA 3.3 last semester and this sem i'm bringing it down to 3.0. as the people around me have clearly noticed, i have been a lot more chewlax-ed this semester. i'm not sure if its a good thing or a bad thing but for me and my overall happiness, it is definitely beneficial. i'm happy with school and amidst all the projects i find some fun in school and especially outside of school. i play raving rabbids despite having much work to do, when i'm out of school most of the time i just sleep or slack at home. when you study, study hard. when you play, play hard. it's a good thing to live by. above all, try your best with schoolwork and don't look back. :) i think i'll sincerely miss poly life when it's over. which it will be soon. by august this year, half of it would've been gone. yay. diploma in mass communication.

moving on. i love my younger CG a lot. something tells me 2010 can be the year they change in many ways for the better and become a better CG. so i should pray a lot more for the kids there. then there's my 1992 cg. i really like them too. i don't believe God puts a group of people together by chance. and 2010 is also the year that we're seniors of the youth ministry. we should be, setting an example for the younger ones. we should be living our lives like the desired products of frontline youth. well maybe not there yet. but after 6 years in the youth ministry.. something must've changed since we were puny sec ones. by the end of this year i really hope we graduate as a tighter batch and a really cool one.

anyway. i shall go for lectures soon. school is starting |: 6 hours lecture today muahahaha. oh and if someone would like to enlighten me on whether adium > msn or adium < msn.. i have no idea what to use because both are screwing up on me. roar. oovoo lah maybe. lazy to change. roar. time for school everybardy.

if you're schooling, have fun with school. (: if you're not, have fun being old.

let's leave you with a verse of the week.
Proverbs 4:23 "Above all, guard your heart for it is the wellspring of life."

rrrroar.

2010-01-02T22:40:00.001+08:00

i'd like to make myself believe, that planet earth turns slowly.

twenty ten & poocat.

2009-12-31T16:22:00.007+08:00

i haven't blog for ten thousand years jialat. better blog one last time before 2010. omg 2010. -.- it hasn't dawned upon me that a decade, ten years, has passed since we stepped into the new millenium. 10 years have passed since i got overthrown as the youngest kid of the family. mmm. ok anyway back from phuket it was freaking fun. freaking freaking fun. first i got there and i was really irritated because i had no immigration card. the angmoh man sitting beside me in the plane took mine and filled it out for his son who was sitting in the row behind us, so i had no card. then the worst thing is when i asked the thai airport staff where to get immigration card then they say DON'T KNOW. i'm like BUT THIS IS YOUR HOME. your house you don't know where the toilet is one meh.

so i was really irritated on the first day. but let's talk about things that were fun..

four lokers. this was some weird golf course that wasn't really nice. only the toilet was. they had hand towels for you to dry your hands how cool.

LOKE. we took like tonnes of time to take this photo because the beach waves kept washing away our name. i think its a nice photo other than the slippers.

had fun imitating advertisements. i think the haagen daz people thought we were cracked.

this is a damn fail imitation i know. but for real, i couldn't stop laughing so oh wells. i'm hannah loke lah please i never give a stone face one.

there were many huge ass rocks at the beach.

my sister always must spoil photos with weird faces. always.

sat on elephants. freaking scary. its super rough. when they go uphill you feel like you gonna fall off. CHANG is elephant in thai but its pronounced SHANG. and my shang went down a step i screamed almost died. fed him some bananas too. FB got better photos. i lazy put all.

one of the things i hated most was the long van rides. like two hours also got and like the plane already killed me thank you very much so don't kill my dead body. my smile is fake. i was giddy.
last day was the freaking most fun. daniel grace and father and i went to explore jungceylon the shopping centre nearby. we went kbox, played arcade, bought our pretty rice bracelets which i wonder why my sister never upload on facebook. -.- and we ate haagen daz and hog's breath steak. good food. happy kids. :)

happy new year everybody.

now i'm back in school and hello homework. (: after eight more weeks of hell i'll have seven weeks of holiday. awesome holiday. then... HELLO YEAR TWO MASS COMM. <3>

holiday yay.

2009-12-20T22:08:00.002+08:00

i still can't believe the friends i have..
5 surprises. 4 cakes. lol.

anyway i'm off to complete my movie marathon. four movies in a day. awesome.

i got two birthdays this year.

2009-12-19T23:49:00.002+08:00

TELL YOU AH. today i felt like it was my birthday again. MADNESS i'm so freaking happy that my friends love me SO much. first i came to church and it was all normal. then after the sermon i really wanted to return cherie's thumbdrive. i went to the JW hall to find the J1 cell group, and NONE of them were there. only ian and loo juin. and when i asked ian and loo juin where the rest of them were, they were like.. i don't know.. and i'm like THIS IS WEIRD. so nevermind.. i went toilet. then as i came back to my own sec two cg, shimei was like: "AAAAH. NO. NO. NO. don't go inside yet.." so i smiled at her and i was like: "uhhhhh haha ok. uhm, when i go in later at the right time i will act surprised ok?" "ok."

then i went back to JW hall to continue finding cherie since my kids weren't done lighting the cake.. BUT NOT THERE! so i decided that i would just go and see if they were done so that i could start acting surprised.. but as i walked back to the room.. i saw the whole bunch of J1s standing outside the JW hall and they were like UH OH. HAHA. they had a separate surprise for me AHHHHH i was like FREEEEAAAKING HAPPY WHY SO MANY PEOPLE SURPRISE ME. then... they showed me what they got.. they got nine cupcakes complete with pretty blue cream cheese it was awesome. two of the cupcakes read "HANNAH" and "17th" i was like freaaaaking happy. like super super super.. now i know where they all went. and then they sang song for me.. HAPPY TTM.

thennnn. then ah. my sec twos were like.. ok the cake is lighted already.. can come in before the candles melt? HAHA they super cute. so i go in and get ready to act surprised. then i screamed this fake scream. one second later, my fake scream became a genuine scream. because.. MY KIDS GOT ME ISLAND CREAMERY. the island creamery cake i said i wanted. i don't even recall telling them that i like cookies and cream but they remembered and they got it!

THEN.. just as i was cutting cake etc, my J1 friends came into the room again. they had in their hands proposal DVD extended version. i screamed again. this is the most bimbotic day of my life but i am so so so so loved.

then after that i got blue cream cheese icing smeared all over my face. like some blue deep sea minerals mask. shared my cupcakes with everyone. was a happy kid. <3

i took 3 days to compose this post.

2009-12-17T23:10:00.011+08:00

YESTERDAY. was.. to sum it up in one word, it would be.. yay.

haha what a bad description. anyway ok let's just do a narrative piece. first i woke up. hmm. not very enchanted with the marcomm common test that was ahead of me. moreover, i spent the evening on the previous day just exploring and playing with my iPhone. and that would also be known as... 'an attempt to flunk marcomm CT'. so i got up.. went for lectures. i had two lectures before CT. gross. it kinda didn't hit me how i was going for lecture on december sixteen. and i only found out about lectures the night before. eee. at home i was whining like mad. and sherwyn had to take my nonsense. and i'm so childish but no, i cannot lah. just cannot. so then after the lectures everyone was so busy studying. refusing to study, i went for lunch with the guys from T102. cannot take it lah don't want to study anymore.

i ate at alumni house.. then just before CT everyone was outside the LT. no prizes for guessing what they were doing. yup you got it, studying. and me STILL REFUSING TO STUDY HAHAH. i just texted and texted away on my phone. all the birthday messages. i had to reply. thennn. this small arch of people crowded around me.. (i had no clue) and suddenly they sing HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUU. and i was like omgosh what is that.. quite embarrassing ah like a lot of people look at me. muahahaha all know its my birthday. got so many wishes yay <3

then for CT. let's not talk about boring CT. it was fine.

after that i went to church and at the bus stop minghui surprised me with this happy birthday balloon. i was a happy kid thanks minghui <33>

and thennn. chrysan wasn't staying over in church. so she told me to walk with her to bartley mrt. i think i must be an idiot to not realize anything, because chrysan isn't exactly the kind that will whine and say "eh walk me to bartley mrt ehhhh." but i didn't suspect anything good for them. she was helping me sync the contacts to my iPhone and when we got to level one the lift door opened, i had my friends (gladys, jiamin and alethea) standing there with the lighted cake and they sang song for me. somehow i was quite shocked and i was superrrrr happy i screamed. not once, a lot of timesss. you can see my happy face below.

the girls all had this diabolical plan in mind to smear cake on my face. so first alethea put some on my hair. and this is me on the floor screaming in protest. it was terrible.

ok. dave put this on my head. awesome.. i had cream, flour, eggs and butter on my hair.. it felt super sticky and i washed my hair twice. with conditioner somemore eee.

bryan and sherwyn ambushed me while i was not on my guard. i ate some of it.. more unglams on facebook. its terrible..

took one with the non-1992s. bryan sister sherwyn amy. :)

1992 girls
i played table tennis with cake in my hair. I WON ELISHA A COUPLE OF TIMES OK. and i played guitar hero. i won once. i lost once. but it was fun. we need the old raving rabbids btw. anyway we played taboo after that, and i had fun screaming and laughing at everything.. its most amusing when everyone guesses a word resoundingly then wrong HAHA. we slept at like 3 plus am.. i had fun yay. the next day i woke up really not wanting to go to school anymore. because it is waaay too annoying. like i go school part time and i mainly spend my time doing stuff in church or something. aiyah heck. the holidays are here. even though i have some schoolwork to do, i will find myself time, by hook or by crook, to go chewlax and be happy.

hahah. anyway.. its always good to be grateful.

thank you God for seventeen years of life.
thank you mummy and daddy for the new phone i love it and its been serving me well.
thank you ziteng gerald romei joyce for the cover for illinois. bimbotic but protects nicely. :)
thank you deborah for lightning mcqueen!
thank you tiffany for the weird shades. weird like me!
thank you chrysan for three random bottles of nail polish lolxzxxz.
thank you serene for a quacking duckie haha.

thank you yi min, fanny, ning, gurvin, romei, jaanani, linnette, ivan, annette, kris vanessa, michelle teo, aunty susie, tiffany, vanessa koh, dawn, katherine, ian ong, jonathan wu, joshua lee, hilda, dorcas, marlene, james liew, elgin, joanna, gloria, daddy, serene, grace, isobel, jananii, jeremy, jiamin, sherwyn, olivia lim, ziteng, mummy, dionne, alethea, eliel, jimmy, daniel loke, peishi, cheryl hoe, cherie, yingting, nicolas, bryan, gerald, chrysan, minghui, elyssa, deborah, gladys, maria, cuifang, john, debbie, maizurah, era, olga, olivia ng, lynette, regina, yuting, shimei, tzecin, iris, emerson, keefe, jeanette, andrea, junling, keann, geraldine, olivia chan, sangeeta, tricia, grace chuang, cleopas, amiel, prarthana, junior, kathleen, alex, daphne, junxian, jessica, jeannie, christian, vanessa choo, gabriel, tian en, elaine, terence, valli, aunty sharon, and marcus neo who wished the latest hahaha L.

THANKS FOR THE WISHES AND LOVE NOTES I FEEL SO LOVED. <3

seventeen. the magazine.

2009-12-17T10:50:00.003+08:00

i very badly want to blog about my birthday yesterday. i will. don't worry.

but. i have to prepare my medsoc debate. school is a

big
huge
significant
weighty
crucial
key
major
serious
sweeping
substantial
principle
main
prime
cardinal
paramount annoyance to my holidays,

when everyone else is happily playing their lives away. but oh wells. life's like that.

:)

2009-12-14T20:09:00.001+08:00

reading my december 16 2008 blogpost makes me happy. my friends surprised me and my parents brought us all to sentosa. like a freaking fun only ah. <3

this year also very fun. (:

my brain is fried and bubble wrap saves the day.

2009-12-14T15:25:00.004+08:00

i'm here to take a break from studying for my principles or marketing communication exam which.. you all already know because i talk about that too much, irritatingly falls on my birthday. i. need. a. break. the subject is dry, for real. today there's a full day of worship ministry team training in church from 9am-5pm BUT i am not there, why? MARKETING COMM FTW. :) hen hao. i love life. haha. but at least i have drive to study. i'm just tired because i was at my favourite place on earth - airport - at 4am this morning to send korkor off to philippines. i miss mob.. /:

while i was studying and being really bored just now, i have bubble wrap from one of my birthday presents. and i started popping them one by one. BUBBLE BY BUBBLE, i am such a patient person. or maybe i was just being a patient. a mental patient. i started playing with bubble wrap. finally i got so bored that i started jumping on the bubble wrap. listening to the POP sound makes me really happy. i jumped till it popped no more. then my sister who was beside me, MSN-ed joash. she told him that i was playing with bubble wrap. and JOASH, WAS AT WORSHIP MINISTRY TEAM TRAINING in church, so he told ian that i was playing with bubble wrap. and just that morning, i texted ian: "hi ian sorry can't be there much as i would love to cause i have to STUDY for my CT this wednesday!" and then now ian finds out im playing with bubble wrap at home and not studying.

so he makes this call to my phone: "hi hannah i heard you're playing with bubble wrap." and i started justifying myself in my classic signature whiney tone, and then he says, "we all can hear you." SPEAKER PHONE DANG. lol. i never fail to make a joke out of myself. never.

and i am about to die studying for my essay questions. with inadequate sleep last night and all. ): anyways i've named my iPhone! its name is AVONDALE. named after the yellowcard song, and the city in chicago, illinois. yeah i think i'm weird for naming my technology. but i feel like they need names. so there. illinois is my macbook if you didn't already know. mmhmm. so my iPhone shall be avondale. and my sister, who has kindly agreed to sponsor my iPhone shell as my birthday present, has took dale out to give him some clothes, and also a screen protector. i will start my relationship with him on december 16. :) hhaha. joke of the day: iPhone cannot mass text. :) let's see how i deal with that. and i stubbornly hold on to my stand that the pros of an iPhone outweigh the cons. hah. materialism. no lah i'm not. at least i hope i'm not.

if God says. surrender illinois and dale NAO.
i will.

mighty king of avondale.

2009-12-13T22:43:00.004+08:00

i've got an iPhone and two unknown presents sitting beside me right now.. kinda really wanna open them and see what my nice friends got me. but. i believe in delayed gratification. and also, my iPhone does NOT have a protective shell and a screen protector yet. so.. nope nope. i can't use it. i'll wait.

DECEMBER 16 i need something to neutralize my mood in lieu of the upcoming principles of marketing communication exam looming ahead.

i stand in awe of You.

2009-12-10T20:20:00.002+08:00

oh my goodness can you believe the long period of time that i haven't been blogging for. haha what happened to me during this period ah? i also don't know. just freaking freaking freaking busy with camp comm, school, and who-knows-what! but you see camp is over and i think camp was freaking awesome.

i met God so strongly during camp on the last night especially. after being in the presence of God for so long, for real, i just felt like WITH GOD I CAN OVERCOME ANYTHING and no amount of schoolwork or scary people are going push me down because i have the most awesome God in the universe. created the heavens and the earth, scared what.. my God and my bestest friend. God sees His people, each and every single one, as great. we may not be the best by the world's standards but in God's eyes we are all equal and He loves us so so so so so much and sometimes it disgusts me how i don't spend enough time with God. hmm. now's the hard part. after camp and all that spiritual high, the toughest thing is to make this drive last. last alllllll the way. till i die. :) an awesome God like this is worth living for and giving up EVERYTHING else.

and i make this resolution that schoolwork will rarely ever stress me out again because i have a higher calling than that of getting a GPA of 4.0 and going to a good university. that's not my purpose in life.

now that was an honest thought from the bottom of my heart.

anyways.. school holidays are coming and you have like NO IDEA how much i appreciate even two weeks of holiday. and i really appreciate good friends. when we were told to go round to people in the youth ministry telling them how much we appreciated them, i decided that it was waaaaay too weird because it isn't in singapore culture to do anything like give people random encouragement out of nowhere, on no special occasion. but the moment i tried the first one (melissa leeeee) and gave her a nice hug. i felt like.. okay i enjoy this and i'm gonna thank and appreciate as many people as possible. in the end, turns out that i felt like i had not enough time to go round and say how much i love people. so if you suddenly receive this random note from me saying that i really love and appreciate you, don't get a shock. lol. its time we have some caucasian culture and start being more open about praising our friends and dropping words of encouragement.

i think majority of the world works on encouragement. its always always nice to hear someone say thanks for _________________. i really really appreciate you because _________________. :) the world should have more of this. for real. and i just want to say to my friends that i love each and every single oneeeeee. those who constantly let me rant and whine especially. those who drop encouragements when they know i'm dying. those who encourage me by asking for prayer requests. those who text me and randomly tell me to keep going. my 92 girls, i proudly say that i belong to this batch - 1992s. God doesn't put a group of people in a group for no rhyme or reason. LOVE LOVE LOVEEEES <3333

:D

2009-11-28T00:34:00.002+08:00

hey guys lol i'm not dead yet. hi ziteng. thanks for the holler-reminder to keep blogging. lol i've been so freaking busy. camp, and school. are waaaay enough to kill. during school i get piled with work and then i suddenly remember: "damn, still got camp." then in church i do camp until super stressed, then suddenly i remember: "damn, still got this and that project." RRRRROAR. and my baby brother is at SUPA camp now. and he is homesick. I KNEW IT LAH MOM TELL YOU ALREADY THEN YOU STILL SEND HIM THERE. -.- lucky got james liew that he knows. fairly well. lol. james liew better not sleep like a pig and take care of ben. lol.

anyways camp is coming. i am excited and stressed at the same time. booklet is like. the most stressful thing ever. nametags undone. later camp everybody like a nameless only lah. HAHA. laugh.

something to lament about this week (this is going to be childish but heck): i found out that marcomm CT is on december 16. wahlau of all things. MARKETING. gimme medsoc common test also i not so unhappy. must be marcomm common test. -.- and then ah. my leaders retreat from 10am-9pm. at least if the common test 9am then i can go for leaders retreat longer. or if the CT at 7pm i can go for the whole thing in the morning. COME AND SMACK IN THE MIDDLE 2PM. don't annoying lah please ah. ): i make it sound like such a huge thing lol. but aiyah just gimme some space because i've never gone to school on dec 16 before ): hate mktg comm also. rrrrroar. i totally laughed at the morbidness of the fact that i will scratch my head over principles or marketing communication. that's naise.

redcamp6

2009-11-17T22:05:00.002+08:00

today's the start of redcamp six and it really reminds me of myself last year. it shows that my time in ngee ann has flown by. year one will be over soon. then the massive pile of projects in year two and senior year threateningly lie ahead. whooohoo yay. thinking back, i think i'm so glad i didn't make it to SL cause my grades and projects will suffer. seriously, redcamp throws the whole polytechnic off schedule. and idk how my RC friends are going to catch up. all the best to them with sincerity and not sarcasm. anyways. my turn to talk to the potential freshies on thursday. i get to advertise my school. the first school that i really find i enjoy what i'm studying. yay.

kris allen where are you.

2009-11-17T17:32:00.002+08:00

kristopher neil allen, i travelled from ngee ann to city hall to toa payoh to find you, cannot find. -.- angry. don't wanna buy you anymore. schoool is being damn crazy. stretched to the maximum, and going to break. but i know for sure by the grace of God i'll make it. and i really love the airport. welcome back cheryl hoeeee :) 919 butterfly panels at terminal threeee :)

oh happy day, happy day.

2009-11-11T09:47:00.002+08:00

november 11 last year was amazing. after finishing a very easy MCQ combined science paper (and of course getting an A1) i went out with my friends to town. i remember eating dory fish for lunch and then running over to HMV to go find david's debut album. i spotted it 10m away from the entrance of the shop and i ran towards it like a mad chicken. DAVID ARCHULETA <3 i haven't been blogging much or blogging about him much. lol. but david is damn awesome and i am waiting for his third album release. more pop please david, would be greatly appreciated.

on a sadder note, i'm in school 1.5 hours early with nothing much to do. i could just meditate and pray, or i could be a nerd and edit my final cut express videos, or i could also study or do more NPASU logos for graphic communication. of all these things i would choose to meditate and pray if i had to choose one. wish i'd brought my bible. ): i used to always bring my bible to school in sec four. illinois takes up so much space in my bag i promise you. ok no excuses. ah see here's where an iphone/itouch comes in handy also. e-bibles. not the best things, but still, e-bibles.

school is reallly being a b***h right now. i've got like one project every module or something. well almost. stuff like S&W they dare to give me volleyball project i fainted. and i doubt i can go for CF today. but then again. aiyah i don't know lah. ): school so stress. whoever tells you poly life is the slackest thing on earth, they lie. i see no reason why we should be any less stressed than the JC kids. they got PW we also got PW. just different kind of PW. and a lot more PWs than they have anyway. -.-

this is pretty random but i don't see how people say that engineering students are more slack than those of the school of film and media studies. and i think anyone who will ever put down engineering students ought to be shot. by the way, engineering students have their school hours a lot worse than i do, i have figured. and from student union camp and CATS class where we get to mix with engineering students, i have derived at this conclusion that the engineering students are the nicest of the whole lot. come on man. sure, they speak broken english sometimes, they throw in a couple of hokkien vulgarities all the time, and sometimes during class they just want to annoy the teacher with their unconstructive comments. but they're also students and some of them have equal (if not better) L1R5s than students from other schools. they just choose to be engineers. engineering they like what, cannot meh. and face the ugly truth that their starting pay is going to be higher than a noob media practitioner's starting pay. life was never fair. deal with it. as david archuleta once said, "The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything they have."

i'm such a complain queen. everyday in life i just complain. the world sucks lah seriously. then again. be the change you want to see in others. as cheesy as it sounds man. I CAN CHANGE THE WORLD. that's what we've been called to do anyway. turn this world upside down (which is actually the right side up cause its already the wrong way around) i sense myself going into the phase of unintelligent rambling now. i just wait eagerly for the day where the wars and violence cease, when creation lives in peace, and where there will be no weeping, no hurt, no pain, no suffering, no darkness, no sick, no lame. on that day when we see you face to face. (: when people stop leaping to their deaths because of A/O levels/0.9 GPAs.

i don't believe God won't give what i'm asking for. every single day i'm going to ask.

rrrrrrroar.

2009-11-09T13:11:00.001+08:00

NAISE. i will go and study soon. i promise.

"ask and it shall be given unto you."

i now know why i'm a fashion disaster.

2009-11-03T22:22:00.002+08:00

i'm waaay too picky with my clothes. see i only like very few things, and all these things happen to burn a hole in my pocket. so.. even though my friends spend X dollars on clothes, and i also spend X dollars on clothes, i get ONE set of clothes while they can get TEN. YT was looking at me drink water today. then she said: "WATER BOTTLE ALSO MUST STARBUCKS?" LOL. i almost laughed and choked on water or something..

then she moves on to point out:

starbucks, (bottle)
puma, (shirt)
levi's, (jeans)
nike, (shoes)
nike, (bag)
esprit, (wallet)
esprit, (jacket)
esprit, (belt)
WHY ALL BRANDED ONE?

HAHA. you see, that's why i am such a fashion disaster. i have expensive things but i only have ONE of each thing. my friends have 10 000 bags that fit different purposes. i always carry that one nike bag. (or the other girly one) epic fashion disaster. i only have ONE esprit jacket which cost mum 130$ and i wear it everywhere, while people have many to suit different outfits. HAH. i'm seriously a sucker. lol.

anyways. school is getting highly boring and stressful too. MARKETING COMMUNICATION my best friend always and forevermore. :) love you <3

the wonders of photoshop.

2009-11-02T22:33:00.002+08:00

hahaha i just started my semester and i am learning PS and AI. so i decided to practise for the PS practical test this friday. and i chose a damn dumb thing to practise on. let me show you my end result. all please have some mercy on uncut white edges, bad contrasting and gamma and exposure and who-knows-what. this is my madien photoshop attempt. :)

hahhhahahaha. to make up for the fact that i couldn't get a photo with him from 5-8 april. ):

and i'm back at my grades issue again.

2009-10-29T22:03:00.003+08:00

today i came home feeling like a hungry bear, so i decided to take my dinner myself automatically (i don't usually do) and i sat down in the hall and started to eat. feeling bored, i turned the TV on to channel 8, 7pm show. one of those typical family tree shows where a few love stories go on and some family issues happen. so there was this scene of this boy running away from home after school cause he scared the mother scold and didn't get good enough grades.

with all honesty, i've been struggling with getting good grades all my life, and what i get never ever ever seems good enough. i'm very thankful that my parents have NEVER ever expected anything much out of my grades. they always just say, just try your best. having said that, i always put unnecessary pressure on myself because in singapore where we live in, every kid has the same set of values instilled in them and that is, grades are very very important. 6 points, 4 As, 4.0 GPA. that is all we need. this has got to stop, really. i was just watching the drama and i was thinking, if this really happens in homes in singapore, something has to be done about it. those poor kids, really. watching dramas like these and "i not stupid" really connects with the average singaporean kid.

and i officially decide that i will never ever ever tell my kids that their grades aren't good enough. if they didn't even try their best, i'll figure out another way to discipline them. whatever it is, just don't ask: "why you never get better result than ___________?" and the worst is.. why only 99/100? omgoodness i give anyone full permission to slap me if i ask my kids that.

TGIF. its actually thursday night, but friday is coming and i just realized how fun fridays are, cause friday is photoshop and illustrator day. cool to the maximum. plus, we spend the day at the newly renovated FMS block and i absolutely love it. one sem into my new school, i officially say that i enjoy studying so much more than while i was in cedar. hmmm. speaking of cedar, homecoming.. i should go for homecoming. its going to be a walk back to our new campus. that is quite exciting. but unfortunately i'll be in korea on that day, so we'll see how that works out. one day i'll go visit the new campus for sure. :)

koh-rie-uh.

2009-10-25T22:37:00.004+08:00

i'm taking off my keyboard protector because its being highly annoying. leaving random oil stains on my keys. i'd rather have my sweat stains on the keys than the weird oil stains. anyway. yay we are going to korea at the end of the year. i would be out of my mind now and hyper and running up the walls if we were flying to the states rather than korea. but anyhow, i'm flyinggg. i'm flyinggg. time to go fly when i've always been only watching other people fly :) omgeez airplane drought. last time i went on a plane was MOB. june 2007. ): hahha deprived singaporean kid lah. ok. idc, america, you wait. i coming soon. you wait. honeymoon confirm there. if i don't get married, i confirm fly to hawaii by myself. cheaper also.

anyway i'll be missing december 31, everyone. so uhm, happy new year to one and all. :)

2009-10-24T22:03:00.002+08:00

yesterday i put my personal message on msn as "i've bought the astronaut's kit, now all i need's a rocket." if you listen to cool music, you'd know its simple plan lyrics. if not, you can go and be minghui's best friend. cuz she saw it and she didn't know it was lyrics. so she asked me: "HUH SERIOUSLY? your pm?" LOL. where in the world would i even be able to buy an astronaut's kit.. -.- mmminghui. i really love you. life would suck without you.

anyway. one week of school down. next holidays, i look forward. december 20, 2009. i'm going to be missing camp on friday and monday. rrrroar. and i hope some lectures on my birthday cancelled. freaking 11-6pm, one hour break. i'm so childish i know right. but come on man im 17. i deserve some room for kiddy-ness. i need to learn to love school more. like sem 1.2. even more than the first sem.

hello God. i need help. as always. /:

scar go away please.

2009-10-20T16:52:00.002+08:00

i'm going to run.. and all please hope that i don't fall down again like i did on sept 10. my goodness. it was september 10 that i fell down, and its already october 20, and the scar is still so disgustingly obvious. like euuu. this time, i going to run with lenses so i will OPEN MY EYES and LOOK at the ground and make sure i don't trip on anything retarded.

i really want an iphone/touch. tsk. i still have completely no idea which i want. and i wish my parents will just choose for me and buy for me on december 16. i want at least 16 GB of space please. grace loke you reading this one or not? help me tell them lah then i no need to open my mouth. lol. element of surprise. then december 16 EH? GOT IPHONEEE. :) that's naise.

i just feel like blogging.

2009-10-18T18:16:00.003+08:00

happy birthday cheryl hwa and elisha lim yi xiang EWLISHA. sigh its a depressing day for school starts tomorrow. i'm excited to learn new modules. but oh wells. my holiday freedom is gone just like that. i've done a heck lot of publicity and i'm proud of myself. having said that, all the compliments i get for the posters, video, clock, brochures, and who knows what other things, i point the glory back to God and i ain't no designer. but in our weaknesses, God's power is made perfect. and i cling on to the phrase "My grace is sufficient for you." when we feel like all hope is gone. God's grace is sufficient for us. comforting to know.

today we went to cheryl's house to give her present but no one was home so we had to leave it at the doorstep. i keep my fingers crossed that no one will take her present away. lol.

on a random sidenote, i'm damn determined to learn how to play daytona. i'm super sure that one day i'll make that sharp turn without crashing into the side barriers. stupid thing to be determined to do, but i just want to do it. practise makes perfect. my first try today. i crashed. rrraarrgghh. bryan is going to teach me to drift. yes.

anyway i should be going to bathe right now because i just walked from chrysan's house, to cheryl's house, back to my house. altogether it was about over an hour i think. i suck, i walk damn slowly. but at least i burn some fat. and i haven't ran since i fell down. which is like how many tens of thousands of years ago. ): okay. we'll see what happens. school is starting. if i don't run, i'll be so sad. maybe it'll help to know that there's S&W. LOL. funny. i still haven't choose my sport. retard. faster lah. tomorrow you get yoga then you know.

haixxxxx.

2009-10-13T14:04:00.002+08:00

school starts in SIX days. i have yet to settle some publicity. shirt/booklet. sigh. and this week i think i must take the stage for some promo also. gonna ask my kids whether they want to take it. as cherie would go.. haixxxxxx. anyway. my voice is still not back. it's still on holiday in the states or something. i wish it would come back then i can sing along with david's second album. i love it so much, non stop repeat. :)

i can't talk so i should blog.

2009-10-12T13:36:00.003+08:00

LOL i freaking lost my voice screaming at raving rabbids yesterday. ok i was already sick to start with.. haha. and EVERYONE i slept 20 minutes in 38 hours, i think im damn zai. but its something damn dumb that you shouldn't ever be trying. cause it spoils you. HAHA. last night i finally went to sleep and i didn't even need 2 minutes to fall asleep. after texting bryan happy birthday, i put down the phone and i think 5 seconds i was gone. lol.

and i woke up this morning, mom was trying to get me to go for breakfast sigh. i wanted to sleep but i went anyway. AND ITS OCTOBER 12 YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS. david archuleta's second album freak freak freak. FREEEEAAAK. and i'm going to get it later. yay.

david is damn weird and i love him for that.

2009-10-09T22:55:00.000+08:00

DavidArchie I had a business card in my shoe the entire time I was exercising. No wonder it felt uncomfortable.
about 22 hours ago from txt

who the heck has a business card in his shoe.

RedCamp6

2009-10-09T11:51:00.001+08:00

i look back and still can't believe i didn't get into redcamp SL.
maybe i think too highly of myself and probably my confidence is fake.
but whatever it is.. have fun everyone who's going to be a part of redcamp6. (:

ben is gifted as much as his other classmates are.

2009-10-09T10:46:00.003+08:00

yesterday my brother benjamin came home and he told my mother, "i never get into GEP leh." i was damn shocked initially. BEN IS NINE. HE IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE WORRYING ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT HE'S GETTING INTO GEP. both daniel and grace got into the second round whereas ben and i didn't. i distinctly remember taking my GEP test and i didn't even bother about the result, or what the test was for.

HOW COME BEN KNOWS SO MUCH? people are becoming more and more competitive. anyway my mom was saying, "hannah, he's like you. never get into second round. hahaha." then i put my hand up to say HI 5 BEN. and he gives me a ^5.

and this is the part i hate the most. they call it gifted elective program if i'm not wrong. so the rest of them are not gifted. lol, singapore's education system for us, yay.

strangely, my mother is in the hall, i'm in my room, and she just called my cell using the house phone to ask me what time i'm leaving, where i'm shopping later, and whether i want to go out for lunch. ?! weird mother seriously. and anyway i don't wanna go for lunch cause i need to recover for joash's party and hopefully i can go for elisha's tonight.

oh by the wayyyy, that dayyyy, my mom asked meeeee: "hannah ah, why you sms ah, the last one ah, always must longgggg longgggg oneeeeee?" then i said, IDK, habitttt! cuz i use keyboard when typing so can spam the last letter. WHOOHOOOO for the invention of keyboards to eliminate the use of a T9 dictionary which cannot spell a lot of words.

i believe You're my Healer.

2009-10-07T22:15:00.001+08:00

38.4 degrees celsiussss ):

omgosh cherie i owe you seriously.
and the other october kids also.

im off to sleep. pray that tomorrow fever no more yay.

everyone loves archuleta.

2009-10-01T14:39:00.002+08:00

something must be wrong with daniel loke. he's been playing archuleta songs the whole day.

i'm bored part 2.

2009-10-01T12:29:00.005+08:00

alright i didn't complete my list yesterday. so let's continue. (i changed the list a bit) plus joash said that my standards are very low tsk. fine.

1) Christian
2) Want kids
3) Must believe in self-soothe for the kids
4) Nice to his parents/siblings (esp sisters cause they are girls like me)
5) All the basic traits - holds open glass doors, gives sweaters to girls, sends girls home.
6) Plays music (More than one instrument, no need so good like Yi Min, my ego burst)
7) Taller than me
8) Cuteness is a plus point
9) Better have a cool way of proposing
10) Drives
11) Don't buy disgusting big diamond rings I WILL NOT BE HAPPY.

AIYAH THAT'S ALL LAH I'M DAMN EASILY SATISFIED. People want diamond ring/pearls right, you give me bubble tea pearls I HAPPY ALREADY.

San Francisco, California, USA

2009-10-01T12:21:00.002+08:00

MMMMMMINGHUI! <3

i'm bored.

2009-09-30T20:03:00.002+08:00

i'm bored and ziteng says i should start thinking about the kind of guy i want next time. so i shall.

1) Christian
2) Want kids
3) Must believe in self-soothe for the kids
4) Nice to his parents
5) Drives
6) Plays music (guitar drums piano all good) (No need so good like Yi MIn, my ego burst)
7) I need to watch Singapore Idol

bye.

rraarrgghh.

2009-09-30T12:45:00.002+08:00

i am bored and eating tuna from the can. tsk. i need to do something.

i love babies.

2009-09-30T10:00:00.003+08:00

last friday at prayer, we went to KFC for dinner. and i was queueing to wash my hands, there was a kid in front of me and when he got to the tap, he pressed and pathetic amounts of water came out cause he had no strength to hold it down. so i asked: "d'you need help?" and pressed it for him. without looking up at me, he proceeded with washing his hands, and mumbled to himself: "xie xie aunty." and then walked away..

i tell you it made me smile when walking back to my table the boy is so cute! -spazzes with excitement- then the next day, saturday, i babysat for the alpha marriage course. the kids were again very cute. the little boy called ivan low (idk whose son) was impressing me with how smart he was and how fast he learnt. he learnt cherie's and my name in like one second. and then he can read very well. he can read the word BEEHIVE at the age of threeeee. he's kinda mischievous but super super super cute.

SUNDAY, the best of allll. dave and heather went for dinner with my parents. so guess who i got to babysit. omgosh i've been waiting for this since the previous time they cancelled their dinner. omgosh i have too many stories to tell but they're so so so so so cute. you know jonnie woke up and he immediately started crying and screaming for heather, but its amazing how WORDWORLD can make him happy so fast. and he speaks so clearly now, he is so so so so so cute. ethan is.. getting cuter. lol. i'm mean. but oh wells.

you know when babies cry and you don't even know what they want and you just see their tears coming down their faces. it makes your own heart melt and break. i think next time my kids cry, i will cry. which means, i will cry everyday. HAHAHA.

holidays are coming to an end. i have NINETEEN DAYS LEFT. its so.. scary. semester 1.1 is just going to suck damnn bad. ): i tightly cling on the the promise that God's grace will be sufficient for me. for now, enjoy whatever's left of the holidays. and i need to go blading one more time. BLADING NOT CYCLING. at the speed at which my girls would go. so that we can slowly slowly, no need to rush.

and omg just got an email from shukun. need to get down to business now BYE. peace out many loves, october 12 awaits.

and this is a really messy post.

2009-09-24T15:03:00.005+08:00

back from CF camp yesterday. oh wells it was alright. i had fun. (: i had an amazing angel joshua who did cool stuff for me too. anyway as of today i'm less of a walking casualty. half my wart is gone and my knees have scabs now just waiting to come out. i will NOT remove them in an unnatural way because i refuse to leave any scars on my knees. i sincerely think that even if there will be a scar, it will be very un-obvious cuz i took tender loving care of my wound. meanwhile, the warts live on. oh wells. and just for an update, my tailbone is not pain at all anymore. amazingly.. cuz i strained it and by right it should be even worse but God has amazing un-comprehendable healing powers. just like how judith from olive vine's daughter had three holes in her heart and six years later, without any treatment, God has restored her heart and it was a completely new one. God confuses doctors. they wonder how the miraculous healing could've taken place. someone needs to tell them that the person behind it is Jesus.

anyways. i really do believe that people shouldn't date till their ready. for me that really means 2011 at the very least. lol. don't go round breaking people's hearts cause if they're not going to be your spouse, they're going to be someone else's. so take care of them. hrmph.

also, i really do think that yellowcard should seriously consider going back together instead of running away on their official hiatus, make some good music and give me good stuff to look forward to. right now, i am absolutely anticipating and waiting for david archuleta's christmas from the heart album to come out. october 12. i am going to collect it. and that is just so exciting. david has pretty green eyes. meanwhile, it is time for the CD rack collection to grow too. next target either jonas brothers or mariah carey. but dang i'm so broke.

broke reminds me that october is a month where i have a lot of important birthdays to settle. offhand i can think of three people that i MUST do something for. ok i just thought of another. lol. why everybody birthday in october one. december is cooler. speaking of december, i think i'm going to either japan or korea, says mummy and daddy, cuz we haven't been on far family holidays for quite a long timeeeee. and also, people can rarely find common dates that are free. our trip should be about.. December 26 - January 2. which is disgusting cuz it means i'll be missing the new year.

anyway i believe my birthday this year will be really disgusting cause its December 16 and its a school day. ): if i remember right, December 16 is leaders retreat. HAH. i will cab down to leaders retreat if school doesn't last too long. cause in my whole life i've only been to ONE leaders retreat. eeee. haha December 16 is just another day. and i'm also getting older and should learn to STOP expecting that day to be all play and no work. when i work next time, or even as a housewife, december 16 can go out and play one meh. still must work what. siao.

some pictures to go along with my wordey post.

my david and my happy face.
my wart and my sad face.
thanks david for coming to singapore it was an awzm performance.

i am stressed..

2009-09-20T16:49:00.002+08:00

i'm going for CF camp tomorrow. its so long. 4 days and 3 nights. it wipes out my whole week and thus causing me to not touch publicity for the whole week. that.. won't do. it can't happen. i'm not done with stuff i really need out soon. and besides, the posters are so cocked up. i've to change so many things. and make another trip to chicken place to print it all again. ok i really don't think i should be complaining so openly but i am quite stressed ): i want to bring illinois to camp so that i can work with whatever i need to send over to people or receive from people. i know there are people helping me and all that stuff. i'm genuinely grateful. :) i should just.. let go and let God.

time for some happy food. island creamery sitting in my fridge, here i comezzzz.

ADistinction

2009-09-18T23:10:00.002+08:00

this is a damn lousy screenshot of my results that i doodled all over with adobe illustrator. HAHA. see whether you can click it open big. if cannot. just strain your eyes and try and read it. or if you can't even be bothered even better.

camp camp camp.

2009-09-17T21:30:00.004+08:00

i just came back from camp today. i know i dreaded camp like anything before i went there cause i couldn't believe i was going to spend about 60 hours in school on a vacation. moreover, i had back problem, knee problem, and nose problem. and one other problem i shall not mention. so they were all spoiling any little mood for camp that i even had to start with.

camp progressively got better. overall i'm happy to have been to camp but even happier that i'm home. during camp i've learnt some things. not really learned, but i'm encouraged to see people sharing their life stories despite barely knowing their fellow campmates for less than 48 hours. we had a session on overcoming adversity and people were sharing about the toughest moments in their lives and it really got me impressed to see that people are unselfish and share and open up themselves to others.

then i had awesome group mates. my disgusting scraped knees cannot bend, cuz if i over stretch them, yellow, red, and purple liquid will flow out. so i couldn't sit on the floor most of the time, and my nice camp trainers also allow me to be special and sit on chairs for almost the whole session. anyways. during the team bonding games, cause we've to run from station to station like eediots as fast as we can. and with my knees how i run, i ask you? so i just walked. people climb stairs, i take lift. and my teammates will run ahead to press the lift for me so that it would be there when i come.

and they helped me along the whole way. team leader never failed to head count and make sure that everyone was present. our generation is not a selfish generation. i believe there are very nice people around. and i don't mean to sound like the grass is greener on the other side or what, but people who are from other faculties, not film & media, i generally think they are nicer and more considerate people. but i bet i'm one of those not so nice ones anyway.

and then at night when we were debriefing about the team bonding games.. i said something along the lines of: "when we first started camp i was totally bored and reluctant to do anything because my legs were pretty much immobilized. today, during the team bonding games, i'm really impressed with how everyone waited for me to walk at my own pace, how we all went at the pace of the slowest man, and i was discouraged because i knew i was slowing the whole team down, but thank you to you guys for being thoughtful and caring about the lame." then what i was quite surprised to hear further on, was another guy from my group saying, "with hannah in our group, i don't feel unlucky at all. in fact i feel lucky because the team gets even more bonded." wth lucky to have a casualty in the group. lol. somehow, the other kids in ngee ann not from my school are very genuine people. i really can't say enough how impressed i am with my whole team. (:

then there's the awesome camp trainers. who have highlighted valuable points to me during this camp. such as learning to show gratitude to people when they did stuff for you. such as how your success is linked to the stuff that people around you do for you. such as how life is never fair and when you're given a bad lot, you've just gotta handle it well and move on with life. who ever said life was fair?

i hate to be complaining.. but.. you know how they count GPA and A is 4, B is 3, C is 2 and D is 1? so i got a high A for radio, also known as an ADistinction. which is quite awesome. i freaking got an AD. when i found out that the AD does nothing to my GPA, i got slightly pissed. then i get the stupid AD for what? in the end i get AD also same GPA as person who got A.

why try my best so hard to do so well when it doesn't matter anyway?

then something inside of me answered the other part of me that questioned. the answer is, i do my best to get that ADist regardless of whether it affects the overall GPA, because God only deserves my best.

high time i talk about david.

2009-09-17T19:42:00.002+08:00

ONEEEEEE

TWOOOOOOOOO

THREEEEEEEEEEE

SPAZZZZZZZZZZZZ! October 12, 2009.

with an injured back and scraped kneecaps.

2009-09-15T06:43:00.002+08:00

i'm off to camp, immobilized. ): miss me for the next three days. i'll be back.

stupid meeeeee.

2009-09-10T09:25:00.003+08:00

OTHER THAN NOTICING THAT MY LEGS ARE FAT, I FELLL TODAY I FELL TODAY I FELL TODAAAAAY ):

I FELL DOWN TODAY ): you know i haven't fell down and seen blood flowing from either one of my four major joints in like at least 3 or 4 years ok.. i only fell down on stupid things like my tailbone. ): ): ): and you have no idea how sad i am that i fell down! i was running running running.. and i tripped on, who knows what, i think it was either a drain cover or a tree root.

and now i'm too lazy to go eat breakfast so i shall just starve here with illinois till we die together. lol. standing and sitting hurts so much, i don't wanna moveeee. D:

bored to the maximum.

2009-09-07T09:21:00.003+08:00

hello one and all, i am awake bright and early, to do idk what. i just finished the airplane. complete with the wordings. lol. im not making sense and am not supposed to either. but anyhow. this week will be quite a boring week and i had better touch publicity pretty much freaking soon. and i still need to find a printer. and finalize thingies. and countdown to cam to see how many weeks left. and do a highscore chart. JIALAT. cherie we need to meet up. if i have to push the thing back one more week i will cry. ):

anyways. did i blog about cinderella on ice, you know the thingy was so freaking awesome. the stuff they do, is a bit mad. a bit only. the guy has the girl on his head and he spins on the spot super fast without holding the girl who's on his head. like ?!. and there was fake rain. it was cool. it looked 99% like real rain so that was exciting, pretty much. and singaporeans who are so amusingly dumb, don't know how to shout encore. they were asking for it, but the audience never got it right lol. so anyway.. my 53$ was worth the thing, only regret is not being able to take any photos during the show. -.-

and.. on friday i went blading, fell down in the first two minutes, i felt damn scared and horrible. but it got better. blading never fails to be scary at first and then super fun later. haha. i want to go again. one more time at least, during the, five or six weeks i have left. i don't wanna count if not i'll be quite depressed. crazy poly life, i whole thing play only. and as of now i'm having weird symptoms like when i sneeze my back hurts. and i feel like some old woman take damn long to bend down and pick up something hahahha.

so last week i also went to ziteng's house for bbq. i was so moody cause my back was damn pain. but i liked marshmallows and chocolate-coated bananas and stingrays. stingray just tastes like fish. not much of fun. but it comes in strips and i never knew that. and have i mentioned that it rocks much to have a sister who can drive. what we lack now, is a car. but when daddy goes overseas then yay we get the car. lol. i love how i got a ride to yi min's house that day, how i got a ride home from island that day, and how i got a ride from school to botanic gardens. and how i got a ride home from ziteng's house. HAH. but i tell you, and i warn myself, that these days may be short-lived. the day that she turns lazy and doesn't wanna fetch anyone anywhere. GG.

anyway. botanic. it was okay. but i think beach outing wins without a doubt. mmm. we should like bring that back. i feel like my blog lacks pictures.. hmm. i shall blog a picture or two.

stupid stylus. ): LG sucks lah.

2009-09-01T22:50:00.002+08:00

today i was a really happy kid out with james and minghui.

anyway, today i dropped my phone together with its pouch. and my pouch is pretty velvety furry. and today as you probably would have known, it was raining crazy cats and dogs, horses and cows, armadillos and chinchillas. so my phone pouch got as wet as a fish and it was so black. i looked at the pouch. and i decided that it was dirty beyond repair so i threw the pouch away. left in my hand was my phone in one hand and the stylus in the other. and i thought to myself, "i will lose this stupid stylus for sure." so i made a conscious effort to not lose it. i put the stylus in one pocket and the phone in the other. i considered attaching it to the phone but i thought that looked really ugly.. so i decided not to.

throughout the day i kept placing my left hand on my left pocket to feel the stylus and make sure it was still intact.

then during dinner, i decided to keep it in a safer place, on the phone or in my bag or something. i reached into my pocket and tadaaa. i felt nothing. omg, gone is my stylus and i am the ultimate winner forever and ever and always.

and i had lots and lots of laughs today.. thankyou james and minghui.

happy teachers' day everyone.

2009-08-31T17:32:00.002+08:00

in continuation from my previous post, i forgot to mention one other insane thing i do for my macbook. not only do i treat the macbook well, i treat the keyboard protector well. you know once my keyboard protector was getting too dusty for words, and its a sticky glossy material on the underside. so i took it out and washed it. i could not use a towel to dry it, because all the towel fur would hook on the protector and it would be gross. so, i carefully and patiently used a hairdryer to blow dry it till it got all hot. but who cares. as long as it looks good later on. hah. today i was at the apple shop in orchard ion, and just looking at the macbook pro 13" made me die. plus the free ipod touch. crazy siao. i am so getting an ipod touch for december 16 please.

anyhow, happy teachers' day. mr ang i will never ever ever forget what you did for me for chemistry. dang, i felt damn bad that i went back to cedar without giving mr ang anything. but my original plan was to go northland and not go cedar at all. but freaaaak. i don't really care, next year i'm going back to northland. i miss mrs lee-goy. she is the first teacher to leave a lasting impact on me. till now i still remember her acronyms to remember science stuff. i still remember her story to know the grammar rules. she and mr ang are by far my favourite teachers in all eternity. i thank God for awesome teachers. poly lecturers, i think i'd be spoilt for choice if i had to choose one favourite cause they are all rocking. hah. love mass comm.

dear illinois.

2009-08-29T23:02:00.002+08:00

dear illinois, i think you are very fortunate to belong to me.

i clean you every single day, and i refuse to let anyone drag you along the floor, they have to pick you up and set you down again. i never put you down with any sound, cause sound would mean i put you down too hard and carelessly. i bought keyb protector for you, cause its highly necessary, but i refuse to buy any other protectors cause i think they would only make you uglier. instead, i painstakingly clean the outside every single day rather than using the shell to conveniently protect. i don't let dust fall and stay on you. when i plug in my headset, the jack must first be cleaned so that dust from the headset doesn't get into the opening for the audio output. i use a bluetooth mouse as much as i can so that i don't sweat on the most amazing multi touch trackpad you have. i use good memory foam to protect you. and best of all, we're into our fifth month anniversary but i haven't dropped you a single time. (: HAH. you're in mint condition and i could easily sell you for a damn good price and get myself a pro 13". but love you macbook forever. <3>

lol omgosh mental patient hannah loke. but sorry i have OCD and my macbook must be handled with utmost care (: and besides, it cost so much of my parent's money.

evil shorts.

2009-08-25T23:31:00.002+08:00

bought my very first pair of FBTs today.

painted my nails with a clear coat today.

lepak-ed with friends for the first time in damn long.

happy kid right now. (:

september.

2009-08-24T10:55:00.000+08:00

dead blog omg. and blogger is looking weird for me again. KILL BLOGGER. anyway camp publicity is currently going really well. i think. we're ahead of time so that is quite awesome, and i thank God for putting people like elisha to help with the complicated software called photoshop and illustrator. (:

so anyway.. this week will most probably be a pucblicity week again, and i am very very very happy that other people's exams are ending and then we can go play together in the rain in the middle of september. just kidding, that was a line from daughtry's song, september. in view of september coming.. you know i really like that song from daughtry. and btw.. david archuleta's christmas album is coming out in october and you have like, no idea how happy i am. haha its going to be awesome.

All the things I still remember
Summers never looked the same
Years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain
In the middle of the September
We still played out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could've been
It was worth it in the endddddddd

We knew we had to leave this town
But we never knew when and we never knew howwwwww...

now i must decide whether to take on the treasurer role for CF camp. /: i'm already such a busy publicity I/C. mmmm.

random photos.

2009-08-18T10:39:00.003+08:00

this was a weird combination of people who went iceskating together when i was sec threeeeee. but it was fun.

janelle tan minghui.. MMMMMMMINGHUI is at my house now studying HAHAHAHA.

JONNNIEEEE! see his face when trying to open the cup. love jonnie love love love love.

this was a random outing at melissa's house when planning the surprise for the adults on the batam trip in conjunction with their 20th anniversary.

casuarina prataaaaa.

OLD CEEEEGEEEEE THAT I MISS SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCHHH. and our new addition cherie lim. (: which reminds me, i need to arrange dinner with shufen during the holidaysssss. <3

its only day one of my official holiay. ):

2009-08-17T12:51:00.004+08:00

this is a problem. i really have nothing to do. ok i shall set some goals for my holidays. DO YOU KNOW that the only even i have on my holiday calendar is cinderella on ice, on september 2 at 8pm. then the other thing that will probably take a huge bite out of my vacation is camp publicity. /: other than that, i have nothing to do. and on DAY ONE, i find myself stuck at home not knowing what to do. so in the end, i played guitar.

i played for about two hours just now and now as i type on the keyboard my fingers hurt. and i have gross, rough skin on my fingertips. and not to mention they are also peeling off. i really wonder what john mayer's fingertips look like. speaking of which, i don't understand why all the guys in tm frontline youth raise john mayer up to the level of a god. lol. i got strong objections when i made a passing comment that i have john mayer fingers (was referring to the peeling skin) and am a lady john mayer in the making. he is, after all, a guitarist. a damn good one, yes. but just something bout the crush on him that all the guys have. lol. quite amusing sometimes.

so anyway i went through the whole frontline youth worship chords book thing and played every chord i know. ah, every chord i know, not ever song. lol. and i tell you my fingers really hurt right now. i also played every taylor swift song i could. taylor swift boosts the morale of new guitarists. it makes you feel like you can play lotsa songs but its only because she uses four main chords: D A Em G. lol. taylor swift is a funny girl.

so anyway. the question is, what am i going to do this holidays? i don't wanna be going out all day spending all my money away. its gone enough. and i know so many people owe me money i lost count haha minghui was like, can you please try to remember how much i owe you.. and i'm like IDK! but anyway.. so yeah. 53$ on cinderella on ice is enough to keel and drain my money, so i don't wanna go out too much. i would do free stuff. for example, i could, read a book. yes i think that's good. i shall complete the book SPIRITUAL LEADERSHIP. lol. so many cgls in frontline have it and have read it and i don't even have the book. i'm a winner.

other stuff i might like to consider doing, is.. hmmm. housework? maybe. if i get paid that'll be a bonus. my mom just offered me 1$ for sweeping the floor. -.- MORE MOM, MORE. 1$ can't even get me bubble tea manxzxxz. hahaha. my mom said i should go to serangoon and take care of little jonnieeeee. yeah man i don't mind but heather has enough hands i think. anyway i have yet to take care of jonnie when dave heather mom and dad go out to eat wellington steak. ): but jonnie is. <3 ok lemme show you how cute jonnie is if you don't already know. lol. you know i never ever forget our zoo outing cause he was extra cute then.

aiyah blogger is being annoying and doesn't wanna upload jonnie's photo. lol. whatever. so what should i do during holidaysssssss?! its only day one and i'm so bored. mmm. i need to go meditate on what to do in this time..

christmas from the heart and i'm growing up.

2009-08-16T17:22:00.002+08:00

oh my heck, october 13 please. no later than that.. david's next album which is going to be a christmas album. just oh my goodness new david songs to add to itunes. i currently have about 55 in itunes. (: lol. please don't let singapore lag behind america. ):

anyhow, today.. joash drove us to amk after church. i think the first time you sit in a friend/sibling's car.. you know you're growing older. someone close to being your peer can drive, means you're getting older rraarrgghh. it felt pretty much weird to me, somehow. weird enough to deserve a mention here. lol. anyway idk if i will be able to drive next time. maybe i'll fail 99 times. ): nevermind, we next time then see.

9 freaking weeks of holiday, i need to make myself useful.

2009-08-14T12:11:00.002+08:00

ok so hello ziteng. this part of my blogpost is for you. ok everybody, you should all learn from ziteng. sometimes, you need to make me happy by feeding my crush on david archuleta. HAHA. that day.. he was going for this wedding to be the photographer and he said, the worship team is not even ready for the wedding, they didn't rehearse properly. or something.. then i thought about my own wedding. if the worship suddenly cocks up, i'll laugh. not funny meh? then later. ziteng said, huh but david will be angry. and you know, i sincerely had no clue what he was talking about. and i somemore think think think a while, mmm. bible times david will be angry? cause he likes so sing songs and worship God. HAHA. then finally i realized he was talking about david archuleta at my wedding. whoohoo. standing beside me. omgoodness so hot. can picture david in a suit thingy. melts and dies. rarely do people actually bother to play along with me saying that my future husband is david ok. all learn from zit please. i'm young and no need to wake up my idea yet. :)

moving on, i have nine freaking weeks of holiday. i don't wanna work. i don't need money. yet. unless i need to save up for my wedding. which ziteng forecasts will be with david yay. but anyway. i don't think holidays are meant for working. maybe some of the time, yes. but don't work until it takes up five days of your working week and then leave you no time to watch UP, go to ecp with your friends. on september 2, i'm going to watch cinderella on ice whoohoo. 53$. /: but sure damn nice one lor. haha. or at least i hope so. in any case, i know my life for the next nine weeks will be focused on camp comm a lot.

one semester has gone by and i shall do some reflection on the first 1/6 of my poly life. its crazy how time flies/teleports. absolutely crazy. anyway.. all in all, i would give my first sem of ppoly life a 9 out of 10. there have been ups and downs. more ups than downs. (speaking of which i need to watch disney pixar's UP) so the ups have been, being able to do what i have always wanted to do, studying media, i love school, i love schoolwork. much as i complain sometimes, i know that it is all useful for what i want to do next time. at least more useful than surds, indices and logarithms. my lecturers are so awesome. don't know how many times i've said that before but i believe that they are all super qualified and they all have the right attitudes. when they love their jobs, it shines through. its starkingly obvious. i love how i have a huge school campus too. despite the walking so far everywhere and a average of 10 minutes walking to get to one place from another, i love the big campus. ourspace is so awesome. not just cause there's a cool face at the entrance. its just a cool place. i can safely say that i love school. i love schoolwork. when doing the module experience survey, i wrote, social psychology is by far the most applicable to real life thing i have learnt in 13 years of education. my studies interest me and that's something i think is of utmost importance. or at least, one of the most important things. anyway.. the downside of things is that sometimes i get really stressed and it affects everything else. but.. you know, God's grace is sufficient and with some help, we can get ourselves out of those kinda sticky situations. i did say, if i survive this week, it can only be God's grace. you know what? i did. i'm alive now.

so anyway i've got like what, two and a half more years of poly? i know i've been called to study not just for academics and an awesome GPA, also for a higher purpose. and so far, i think i've not been fulfilling that in school. i need to learn to do that, i know. its hard but i'll figure it out, with some of God's help. yesterday when i was reading my bible, phil 4:13 came to mind. "i can do everything through him who gives me strength." i do know that without God i can't do much, or i can't do anything for that matter.. so the verse applies almost anywhere.

anyway GPA comes out somewhere mid september. from now till then, i'll just play my life away and take a break from school to get ready for the looming 1.1 semester that lies down the road. seven modules. i can do this. anyway i think i should totally not try to expect any GPA. because i might be disappointed. for my psych test, i did expect myself to score at least 19. i'll be honest here. i expected it and i got 17.5 and then i felt annoyed with myself. many times i try to say, as long as you do your best, the results reaaaaally don't matter. but somehow i sometimes find myself dissatisfied. so i should stop it, really. and i think miss serene can't stand me. at the meet the parents session she told my parents.. hannah is very... she got 19/20 for her quiz and she beat herself up over it. so on my CT, she wrote.. "Terrfic job, Hannah!" i think she scared i commit suicide when i never get 19.

anyway that shouldn't be the impression that she gets from me. so something is wrong with me. anyway i got 19/20 for yes another quiz and its those easy easy kind one. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.. like.. when its like so close yet so far from a perfect score, sometimes you just want to strive for the best that you can get.. and when you're like half a mark away, its like. UGH. rraarrgghhh. i'm ranting here i believe. my reflection has turned into unintelligent rambling. but nevermind. my blog. i say what i want to. so next sem i have seven modules. its a long holiday. JC people, jiayoussss with promos or A levels.

poly people, the cool ones, enjoy your holidays which are either coming or have started. (:

red pearls and the loft.

2009-08-09T23:46:00.006+08:00

my top 25 most played songs on itunes:

1) Crush

2) Tenessee Line

3) Waiting For Yesterday

4) No Boundaries

5) No Surprise

6) September

7) I Will Be

8) Falling Slowly

9) Zero Gravity

10) Somebody Out There

11) Works For Me

12) Fearless

13) Angel

14) Save The Day

15) Heartless

16) A Thousand Miles

17) Zero Gravity

18) A Little Too Not Over You

19) Falling

20) Radio Capsule

21) Footprints In The Sand

22) Tell Me Why

23) You're Not Sorry

24) Let Me Go

25) Bleeding Love

it can only be david, taylor, daughtry, kris allen, and leonaaa. lol. freaking awesome music. ok those are my song recommendations. you should totally go check those songs out if you don't know them. freaking awesome music. FREAKING. :)

next, idk if you would believe me lol. but this is my school! :D they have apartments for camps to go on. so this is the very awesome loft @ block 94. it still amazes me how ngee ann spends lavishly on its students. whooohooo for school.

anyhows, i should totally show you guys red pearls. OK i drank bubble tea nearing national day, and they had RED pearls in conjunction with national day. flippin' cool. here goes:

awesome stuff hahahahah. anyway. hellish week in school this week, but "My grace is sufficient for you." :)

all of my life, in every season.

2009-08-06T23:06:00.002+08:00

i feel tired but i just feel like i want to and have to blog. well. its really really a crunch period right now. socpsych assessed tutorial, almost the whole class cocked up. so whatever. aiyah what's over is over, we can't do anything. i can only hope for the best now with my CT. anyway. psych lessons have been insanely interesting, so i'm happy. as long as i don't have to retake the module. i was telling ziteng, if i survive next week, it can only be God's grace. seriously. amidst all the piling assignments for the semester, i still have frontline youth camp committee to worry about. it's kinda mad. but God's grace is sufficient for me.

today i realized how much i like the lyric: "all of my life, in every season, You are still God. i have a reason to sing, and i have a reason to worship."

whooohoo. and i'm telling you, there are so many things to thank God for ok. thank God for:

1) freaking awesome friends.

when i had fever 39 degrees and assignments piling up, my friends showed some concern. i had people giving me verses of encouragement. i had people telling me to drink more water.

2) freaking awesome seniors.

whatever would we do without seniors? today, widya and i met keann along the corridor near the production studio. and he gave us some useful advice on how to do our capsule. awesome.

3) freaking awesome lecturers.

lecturers are most of the time understanding and nice. they push you to achieve the grades you can achieve. today, mr yoka offered to give us advice even though we weren't from his class. while he was talking to us, i noticed the mediacorp passes he had on his file. ngee ann gives us only the best lecturers who've been in the media industry. been there, done that.

4) freaking awesome co-CGL.

yi min has been very understanding that i'm not really what you call surviving well in poly. i mean i am surviving well, but its after countless hours of effort and work which makes me all stressed out and not all the time able to lead CG. never fails to cover up.

5) freaking awesome bed.

i have a super awzm bed to return to after my long day of work. it gives me all the rest i need. and that sounds like exactly what i need now too, so.. i should be off to sleep.

maybe though, i should take a chance to say that i thank God for YOU. if you're reading my blog you're probably my friend so.. i love you friend. (: if you ain't my friend, lol. idk. tag my board. we'll make friends. but thank God for you anyway cause everyone exists for a reason. well i don't know why my fingers just moved to type that. but it did and i'll leave it there. i'm tired, starting to go on unintelligently. alright. will stop now.

random rants. phrase koped from elisha.

2009-07-31T16:35:00.000+08:00

next week is project spamming week. ): i hate it so much but oh wells everything will be over by august 14. how awesome. then i will slack for about nine weeks? yeah. i can't believe it is only the beginning. i mean i've only been through ONE semester and already i feel like its sucking out all the energy i have. -.- lame. next semester EIGHT freaking modules. i really really really wonder how hectic it will be and how much i will drown. /: anyways. lol i did IS presentation today and got a B. whatever lah. i bet my whole overall grade for every module will be B. hopefully everything except radio. i reaaaaaally reaaaaally hope to do well for radio this semester. so far its an A, A+, A, A+, and i obviously hope not to spoil the clean sheet. but whatever. we'll do our best YES WIDYA? and hope that we will do well. (:

mrs toh-mong just called me. lol scary. and my zao sia voice over the phone lol. she wants to rearrange our consultation date. she is so scary please. she's probably nice and everything but just as a lecturer, /: scares me. oh yeah have i mentioned that i lost my voice. so now its all husky and sexy. i love it. (: i hope it stays longer. i like sexy voice, sounds nice. everytime i screamed at sports day, table tennis match, football match, i never ever lost my voice. this time i did hahaha yay. but its going away soon. ): and i can't go for CG outing tomorrow. -.- coughing like a crazy woman and my mom says if i go do vigorous stuff under the sun, i'll come down with fever again. so fine. listen to her. if i get a 39 degrees again i'll cry cause i have so freaking many upcoming projects that are due in week 16 and 17.

ok time to recommend good music. no surprise by daughtry is an awesome song by the way. it has constantly been on repeat mode on my itunes, but not as much as david's entire album. lol. and tenessee line is such, a good, ACOUSTIC song. i am daughtry advertiser. really, daughtry has a very nice voice. and thanks i just tried singing along to the song no surprise by daughtry with my sexy voice and i cannot sing. it goes out of tune. -.- ok. then the other nice song is our song by taylor swift. ok. taylor swift obsession, yes. and how can i mention daughtry and taylor swift and not say anything about my dear david archuleta. speaking of david. lol. i tweeted him this:

"david. important question. do you get tired? cause you've been running through my mind. hahahahahahahaha."

HAHA. today marks the second year that david started his american idol journey at the qualcomm stadium in san diego! singing waiting on the world to change. with his beautiful, soulful voice. hit the notes effortlessly and gained himself a golden ticket to hollywood. the then sixteen year old geeky boy (don't get me wrong. i loved his spiky funny hair there) who had no confidence and didn't even think he'd make it pass the producer's audition, has travelled practically the whole of north america performing his awesome debut single CRUSH and many many many more covers and originals, appreciated by girls AND BOYS alike, aged 7-70. whooohoooo. i love david archuleta and his music. as if that's new to you. but yes. NOW HE'S 18 and that boy who's never stepped out of north america, has now gone to singapore, malaysia, philippines, and to britain. awesome boy. to still stay humble. is the most key. how does david do it. i still wonder.

enough said, the song from david that i really like is still crush. and that has not changed since august 12. it is always applicable to young lost people blinded by love. who think that their crushes are true love, and get together and have to go through break-ups. oh wells part and parcel of life i guess. i still am insisted on marrying the first boy i date. idk if can but i want. lol.