If you're reading this I'd assume you're extremely weird because my blog is completely dead but I wanted to post something because I can't even imagine how strangely messed up my life is. Also this is the vulnerable side of me because really not much people know what I'm about to say.
1. I missed the director's list yesterday by 0.03 GPA. Sounding like a competitive bitch, I know. I love encouragement and I work on it. That was remotely ever my only chance of getting that I think. The truth is, I know that other than my best God doesn't want anything else. I just need some time to sulk about it.
2. I missed being the top mod. I'm sure my friend beside me would've seen my disappointment. I studied like a crazy bitch for that. And yet again I lost it. History repeats itself. It happened in year one as well.
3. We got culled like crows yesterday for masina presentation. We were not prepared and we deserved it. But lecturer was very nice about it. And for that I am very grateful. He could have killed us but he chose not to. Instead he asked: "Why you all look so sad now?" Reminds me of another undeserved grace I got.
4. We got cheated of 2.4k. I agree it is too much to pay me 4.1k for a video. I really agree. But the hope of having that extra cash was already there and now it is cruelly taken away. I was about to say that I'll sponsor some of my Copenhagen trip by myself. Now I have second thoughts. Having said that I totally understand where R is coming from.
5. I'm not done with work. Enough said. School and work at the same time is already killing me.
6. A stupid trivial reason to be sad. My bank dropped to the next lower thousand yesterday.
7. I don't have my own room. No privacy. Now the house knows that I quarreled with some of my best friends at school last night. Maybe that's why I have a 3M privacy screen protector. Because that's the only form of privacy I will ever get. So that the people beside me on this mother sardine packed train at Dhoby Ghaut cannot see what I'm saying.
If there's really someone reading this. I'll be fine why? Because my God is good in every season and I have a reason to live and face tomorrow.
